You made me love you, I didnt wanna do it I didnt wanna do it!

[starrynightslc]

Im walking toward his car, he is waiting inside
Everything tells me to turn around and run
But I dont listen... I never listen when it comes to him.
I jump in the car and I see his face... then its over
Its just over
Im a puddle on the ground
Im clay in his hand
Because I love him
why do I love him
He lies
He doesnt even know himself
Yet I want him more each passing day
He uses me, my beauty, my pain, my love
Hes proud of me
He's ashamed of me

When he kisses me he looks around to see who is watching
afraid he will get caught
Im all wrong for him, a mystery and adventure
Im a game, a toy
He is my heart, my life, my love, my inspiration
How is that fair
Where am I to gain
Im crazy to feel this way
He's crazy to let me go
but he will..
for a time
then he comes back to me with tear filled eyes and expressionless confessions
I take him in like a cigarettes first lite.
why
Im angry
Im jadded
Im alone in my defeat
I dont know what im to be
He made me loose my sense of self
He made me feel alone
he made me fall again and again
He made learn to live
I made myself do all these things, its just easier to blame him
Its my heart my mind my soul
I always have a choice
This is my voice
Its loud and clear
I will not budge
This is me not him
He is a piece of something past
I am the puzzle that will last