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Second day of my femera and its making me insane. I dont know why this month its making me feel so depressed and anxious, when it hasnt other months. Maybe my bodies just pissed about the messing of the hormones month after month. But I hate feeling this way. Friday will be my last dose and then next week comes the trigger shot, which sucks since I feel pregnant for about a week when Im not. I think thats so mean to have to go through the feeling of being pregnant and not be, when being pregnant is all you want. Kind of a tease. im so sad I did not conceive this month since I was daydreaming about telling everyone at christmas. It would have been the best christmas present ever to get my BFP! However, if I did get pregnant this cycle I would find out on new years day which would be cool too. Matt and I are trying to figure out how far well go to get pregnant and how long well go through it. I think I would go as far as IVF but I dont know how many times I would try it, especially with the heafty pricetag associated. I know after the femera for a couple cycles, well talk about injectables. Hope it does not come down to that. I just cannot imagine the day when i see a BFP after so many cycles of bfn's. It seems like a distant fairytale.
School is almost over, next wednesday I take my last final at 7pm and thats it. Im so excited to get a break since I havent had one since last winter break!!! Im totally overdue for a stint of R & R!
We are getting more and more settled in our house but still have to paint and whatnot. Hopefully soon Ill be able to start working on the babies room!
School is almost over, next wednesday I take my last final at 7pm and thats it. Im so excited to get a break since I havent had one since last winter break!!! Im totally overdue for a stint of R & R!
We are getting more and more settled in our house but still have to paint and whatnot. Hopefully soon Ill be able to start working on the babies room!