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So, I have definitely come to the conclusion that I cannot wait to graduate. The sad thing is, I still have over a year and a half :( Why am I so eager to graduate all of a sudden? Because I cannot wait to move the hell away from here. I am so sick of dealing with everything around central Pennsylvania. I used to think that I wanted to stay here forever...I actually liked it...but now I have no idea why. It honestly seems like the only thing anybody has time to do is lie. What is up with that? I used to look forward to coming home on the weekends, now half the time I dread the thought of leaving Lock Haven because I know that there is a chance that I am going to have to see these stupid f'in people. Its kind of pathethic how 2 people can just totally piss me off and make me want to leave everything behind...I don't know what is more pathetic, these 2 people or the fact that I allow these people to effect me so strongly.
Ya know what else? If you don't honestly feel something, don't fuckin say it. Do whatever the hell you want with your life, but leave my emotions out of it. I am so sick of hearing all of the shit. That is all it ever is. You are always talking and talking and I honestly don't think you mean any of it. I really hate the fact that I gave you so much of me and wasted so much of my time on you. You know what? I'm over it...
So, aside from that, I have a new favorite song. I just love the lyrics (this is only they chorus):
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now
There is just something about those lyrics that I love. And I'm not trying to be sacriligious or anything, I believe in God and Heaven, there just seems to be some truth to it all...
***It really hurts that you didn't mean anything that you said, if you did mean it, you have a very STRANGE way of showing it***
Ya know what else? If you don't honestly feel something, don't fuckin say it. Do whatever the hell you want with your life, but leave my emotions out of it. I am so sick of hearing all of the shit. That is all it ever is. You are always talking and talking and I honestly don't think you mean any of it. I really hate the fact that I gave you so much of me and wasted so much of my time on you. You know what? I'm over it...
So, aside from that, I have a new favorite song. I just love the lyrics (this is only they chorus):
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now
There is just something about those lyrics that I love. And I'm not trying to be sacriligious or anything, I believe in God and Heaven, there just seems to be some truth to it all...
***It really hurts that you didn't mean anything that you said, if you did mean it, you have a very STRANGE way of showing it***