shes not the type to be enticed by fake ice
so, what does this mean, anyway?
me and chris.. are what we are.
in inbetween feelings
half of me falls for him hard, the other half is pretty much indifferent. and in the middle... well... in the middle i still cant stop thinking about how easy it was just to have sex with ben. how flirty ang giggly things were with sal. speaking of, im actually going to his house for a BBQ. trvor, will, chimi, ian, joe and some other kids are gonna be there.
i guess it will be good.
it wasn't my intention to hang out with sal tonight.
initially i was going to chill with chris. we were going to seans grad party.
he came over after we both got off work.
we had sex.
oh yeah, sex. about that.... i dont know if sex is all that its chalked up to be. i dunno. its just ok sex. its lustful in the begginning... but then, then i get bored. maybe i need so spice things up a bit? im planning on going shopping for some "outfits" the next day i have off. im thinking a maids outfit would be pretty cute. we'll see how it goes.
but back todtoday. so after being hit on by some lesbians and popping a shitload of advil, chris came over.
i was planning on cooking (me, cooking, this is big) all i got to do was bring him water.
we had sex.
he left.
because he "had to go home" so he could "get rest"
left me feeling kinda like shit.
its so fuckin risky being in a relationship.
he plans for the future, with me in it. but guys could say ANYTHING to get into your pants. thats what makes me nervous.
he;s older. different priorities.
what if im only falling for him because he's doing all the gentlemenly things that most guys do anytway, but he's the first one i met, so i immediatley like him?
is this going anywhere?
so, im gonna go drink ym beer(s) and wait for amanda. so we can rock this BBQ like no other.
what do i say to sal...
me and chris.. are what we are.
in inbetween feelings
half of me falls for him hard, the other half is pretty much indifferent. and in the middle... well... in the middle i still cant stop thinking about how easy it was just to have sex with ben. how flirty ang giggly things were with sal. speaking of, im actually going to his house for a BBQ. trvor, will, chimi, ian, joe and some other kids are gonna be there.
i guess it will be good.
it wasn't my intention to hang out with sal tonight.
initially i was going to chill with chris. we were going to seans grad party.
he came over after we both got off work.
we had sex.
oh yeah, sex. about that.... i dont know if sex is all that its chalked up to be. i dunno. its just ok sex. its lustful in the begginning... but then, then i get bored. maybe i need so spice things up a bit? im planning on going shopping for some "outfits" the next day i have off. im thinking a maids outfit would be pretty cute. we'll see how it goes.
but back todtoday. so after being hit on by some lesbians and popping a shitload of advil, chris came over.
i was planning on cooking (me, cooking, this is big) all i got to do was bring him water.
we had sex.
he left.
because he "had to go home" so he could "get rest"
left me feeling kinda like shit.
its so fuckin risky being in a relationship.
he plans for the future, with me in it. but guys could say ANYTHING to get into your pants. thats what makes me nervous.
he;s older. different priorities.
what if im only falling for him because he's doing all the gentlemenly things that most guys do anytway, but he's the first one i met, so i immediatley like him?
is this going anywhere?
so, im gonna go drink ym beer(s) and wait for amanda. so we can rock this BBQ like no other.
what do i say to sal...