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So Ive been thinking alot about my weight and my health, and alot about myself, and my path in life. And it is true what sandra say about overweight ppl, and ppl with eating disorders. I've gained a quite alot of weight of weight. And now that my out of control eating habits has really begun to be obvious I really want to take care of my self. I've come so far. And I have soo far to go. Right now I'm 195 pounds. And I'm not embarassed to say that now. I cant hide it in anything. And I'm not going to create this cocoon around me of my insecurities. I'm not gonna cover my curves, my big booty, or my breasts. I'm not gonna cover up my body, because its so beautiful. And Thats something I'm gonna work on. I cant hide from my real self anymore. I'm not a lil kid anymore. I need to feel happy about the person I see in the mirror. I know theres something great under there. I'm tired of bingeing, I want to be as happy with where my life is going, as how I look. I have come a long long way. And I can lose the weight in ahealthy happy manner. I can get my youth back, lose the stress and be happy one day. I know I can. I'm gonna be happy one day.