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So, Im gonna update here. Currently im feeling nauseaus. I saw a picture of an ex of mine. And Its not that ity makes me sick, But its makes me nervous. The past, and waves of emotions. Passion, and hatred, and sex, tender touches and kisses, ignoring calls and painful curses. Im not tryna be poetic or annoying but sometimes a simple pic can awaken so many dormant feelings for someone u once called your own. Sigh** Sometimes u step out of someones life because its not the time. And you watch from far away and ache to be in the ir life again, aeven thought u know u cant ever do it again. Not now.
Its bizzare but its always the girls in my life that i cant walk away from.There was this girl I was in love with in H.S. If your're reading this jessi. U might know who im talking about. We would walk aroung holing hands, no boys could replace us. No boyfriend, no friend no acquaintance. I'm still dating greg. Hes the heterosexual love of my life. But I guess thats the artist part of me. Always hgaving a muse, or inspiration to my work, my deepest emotions. Blondine is back in my life. I'm going to see her for the first time in 3 years since she left. Bizarrre how some ppl come back in yur life. I'll admit it. I have huge butterflies my stomach, parts of me are awakening. Parts that have fell asleep since her departure. And parts that awaken when i see pictures of my anna. And even though well never be an item again, and i cant be her friend, i can wish shes ok. i know she prolly thinks i dont want to talk to her. Or be her friend. But thats the exact opposite. I still care about her, I just cant be in her life, and shcant be in my mines. I hope this doesnt make me a pussy.
God, how can i be in a hetero relationship? When I feel so passionately about so many females I know. Gotta weigh things out Uh. ....I miss greg.
besides that, I'm doing a photo shoot. And my friend kathline, is helping me. Shes this gorgerous blonde. Gorgeous. Alos I wanna admit my love suicide girls. Oy. Pierced girls are my weakness.. Omg. I'm getting my niples, Im getting back into my art, and that means more piecrings. Plans for some more for my ears, and my nips, and maybe a tattoo. Anyhow. I've found some inspiration i n my life. I'm happy.
A lil horny for some punk chick but...
eh ill be fine dressing up greg...
lmao
toodles guys.....
Its bizzare but its always the girls in my life that i cant walk away from.There was this girl I was in love with in H.S. If your're reading this jessi. U might know who im talking about. We would walk aroung holing hands, no boys could replace us. No boyfriend, no friend no acquaintance. I'm still dating greg. Hes the heterosexual love of my life. But I guess thats the artist part of me. Always hgaving a muse, or inspiration to my work, my deepest emotions. Blondine is back in my life. I'm going to see her for the first time in 3 years since she left. Bizarrre how some ppl come back in yur life. I'll admit it. I have huge butterflies my stomach, parts of me are awakening. Parts that have fell asleep since her departure. And parts that awaken when i see pictures of my anna. And even though well never be an item again, and i cant be her friend, i can wish shes ok. i know she prolly thinks i dont want to talk to her. Or be her friend. But thats the exact opposite. I still care about her, I just cant be in her life, and shcant be in my mines. I hope this doesnt make me a pussy.
God, how can i be in a hetero relationship? When I feel so passionately about so many females I know. Gotta weigh things out Uh. ....I miss greg.
besides that, I'm doing a photo shoot. And my friend kathline, is helping me. Shes this gorgerous blonde. Gorgeous. Alos I wanna admit my love suicide girls. Oy. Pierced girls are my weakness.. Omg. I'm getting my niples, Im getting back into my art, and that means more piecrings. Plans for some more for my ears, and my nips, and maybe a tattoo. Anyhow. I've found some inspiration i n my life. I'm happy.
A lil horny for some punk chick but...
eh ill be fine dressing up greg...
lmao
toodles guys.....