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Alot of new things have happened. Alot. I've learned alot. Been hurt alot. Felt new felings. Met new people. And sometimes I get so caught up in looking back that I walk the wrong way, and get soo lost. Im talking about the whole anna and me thing. We're officially done and I'm getting her out my system. this means the gifts she gave me. I'm over her. I'm throwing out her lil gifts, the pictures
I took of her. I dont need any of that now. I'm into diff things. Im in thsi program to better myself. I'm living on my own. And I dont need her anymore. I realize how things were with her. And now that I spend most of my time with Greg now it puts thingsin perspective. I've never felt this way before. And whether this makles me bi or not Im not interested, and neither do i care about stupid labels. I get way too caught up in staring at things. In trying to understand things sometmes, that I get lost. I dont want to do that with Greg. This is soo new to me . And I finally feel like I dont have to talk to Anna agian.. And nor do I have any interest in doing so. Let sleeping dogs lie. And I'm just trying to understand myself, work things out. And make things happy between me and him..
I'm being real now. And I'm gonna be free to talk about whatever I want on my lj now. I'm not gonna be hounded into being entertaining to anyone. But I'm gonna write my thoughts. I'm planning on taking more ppl off my buddy list. I dont wanna be bothered. I just want things to mellow out. I wanna enjoy this time.
I've attempted suicide again.( well about 3 wks ago) and I'm in this intense program that Im givin a chance. So im ...well.. I am hopeful about that. I dont have a comp in my apartment. And that explains why I havent written anything in like 2 months. But I will try and keep in touch with caring friends more often. Esp my parker. I miss him so much.
motivation... less drama.... more happy
i gotta run off to work.... now.. .
sette
I took of her. I dont need any of that now. I'm into diff things. Im in thsi program to better myself. I'm living on my own. And I dont need her anymore. I realize how things were with her. And now that I spend most of my time with Greg now it puts thingsin perspective. I've never felt this way before. And whether this makles me bi or not Im not interested, and neither do i care about stupid labels. I get way too caught up in staring at things. In trying to understand things sometmes, that I get lost. I dont want to do that with Greg. This is soo new to me . And I finally feel like I dont have to talk to Anna agian.. And nor do I have any interest in doing so. Let sleeping dogs lie. And I'm just trying to understand myself, work things out. And make things happy between me and him..
I'm being real now. And I'm gonna be free to talk about whatever I want on my lj now. I'm not gonna be hounded into being entertaining to anyone. But I'm gonna write my thoughts. I'm planning on taking more ppl off my buddy list. I dont wanna be bothered. I just want things to mellow out. I wanna enjoy this time.
I've attempted suicide again.( well about 3 wks ago) and I'm in this intense program that Im givin a chance. So im ...well.. I am hopeful about that. I dont have a comp in my apartment. And that explains why I havent written anything in like 2 months. But I will try and keep in touch with caring friends more often. Esp my parker. I miss him so much.
motivation... less drama.... more happy
i gotta run off to work.... now.. .
sette