DRUMROLL PLEASE.
My computers actually having alot of problems right now, but I'm feeling really nostalgic, so I'm going to update anway. So I like purple. I should be at school right now actually, but I'm not cause my eyes were like crazy swollen. I also went to sleep right after my volleyball game yesterday and did no homework. I went to sleep immediately because my eyes were swollen. I kindof just need a break. I will actually be missing a game today (against mount vernon) but Im sure we'll win so it doesnt matter much. Its actually nice not to have to see coach k today. God that man's an asshole. Let's see where to start talking about things...
Well I kindof miss livejournal when I remember about it, because all my friends from it I don't realy talk to too much anymore. It's more like I dont really do non school related things anymore in general. I feel sad that I don't know about peoples livese anymore, but I guess thats the whole growing apart thing. Yea so right now my days are filled with New Rochelle volleyball drama. We've had like 5 or 6 people leave the team and half of them come back which is soo ridiculous. and our record is like 1 and 9 which is the WORST its ever been. Ireally just want it to be over now. 0ctober 20 couldn't come soon enough.
Something that's changed since my last journal entry like over a year ago, is that i think I'm less insecure. I think Ive stopped caring about pople judging me and it's really nice. I think it's mostly due to my hair actually, because it's kindof forced me to deal with people's constant opinions on it. Most of the time I get how do you do it and wow thats pretty but i also get is that yours?? and What the Fuck? And there are my few friends CHRIS who liked it better the old way. But oh well. You can't please evIeryboy all the time. And then of course it's really nice to know no matter how much things change and people like or dislike you theres one person you can count on to always be there for you and thats really nice. I know that last sentence would absolutely make Mrs. Wallace shudder. Sorry guys.
fkl lj was refusing to give me bold purple, sorry had to test it out. Anyhow yea I won't bore you guys, if there is any of you reading this, abot my romantical life, but my one year anniversairy is coming up in a month from tomorrow. so yay=) So that makes me happy because as of rignt now that's probably the only person I can count on. My family is still my family and absolutely dysfunctional in every way possible. And i can't even begin to talk about the craziness there because i'm somewhat ashamed of how ridiculous it has become. We're supposedly going to counseling but I really can't think to much about that because college applications are looming and I need to go back to being a scholarship searching fiend. My father is being his usual undependable self, promising to send money and then making me wait for it and making up all these bs excsues like i put the wrong address. HOW many times can you put the wrong adress? when it comes to the truth I honestly can't trust either of my parents, which is a shame. This is basically why i MUST GO AWAY for college. How many days till graduation? like 160? ughh. which reminds me that i should probably start thinking up that quote.
Is there a limit to how much i can type? i've definitively been going on for like forever now. i reallyhope mr.morrison isn't calling my house as i type. ughh. but that's it for now. I forgot how much I like just randomly writing. I guess it's just because I stopped having time to do things i like, like randomly writing and reading. ah well...till my next update, probably a year from now.
my moods a purple star! how cute. i thought they were smileys. that made me happy. i love when things match.
on some other random notes to update you on my life: i stopped having a myspace because i forgot the password. so my myspace is still there just kind of floating in hyperspace. my cat is blind which is sad. my siser lives wth me and my father liikess to be in my life onoccassion. and i refurse to change my email to make colleges happy. will starryeyes328 really offendthem that much? so i've got starred eyes, isnt that a good thing? however once i do get into the business world i may get something more conventional like nedwards but not now. oh and um i'm in a miss new york pageant...just to be even more random basically. lol