F-ing useless
I can't seem to pull my brain together long enough to have coherence.
I've been battling with a measely paper for what seems like an eternity... This shit used to come so easy to me.
I can't even keep my head in a game that I once loved.
Hell, I can't even talk about life anymore. Something's missing, can't place what it is... can't put even the simplest of ideas and emotions into language. As Sue has recently become privvy to, I can't help but trip over my own words. I used to be so good at all of this. What the hell. I thankfully can still sometimes write about my emotions... though I don't think this post is evidence of that.
Aw hell...
Not even saddened by this anymore... just... Agitated. Frustrated. Ill at ease. I can't even find words to describe my ability to not find words... christ.
*waves arms emphatically in frustration*
I leave for NY tomorrow and then for England on Thursday. I so hope that the ten days away will clear my head and allow me to concentrate once again.
I've been battling with a measely paper for what seems like an eternity... This shit used to come so easy to me.
I can't even keep my head in a game that I once loved.
Hell, I can't even talk about life anymore. Something's missing, can't place what it is... can't put even the simplest of ideas and emotions into language. As Sue has recently become privvy to, I can't help but trip over my own words. I used to be so good at all of this. What the hell. I thankfully can still sometimes write about my emotions... though I don't think this post is evidence of that.
Aw hell...
Not even saddened by this anymore... just... Agitated. Frustrated. Ill at ease. I can't even find words to describe my ability to not find words... christ.
*waves arms emphatically in frustration*
I leave for NY tomorrow and then for England on Thursday. I so hope that the ten days away will clear my head and allow me to concentrate once again.