FALL

[starryeyedchk]

I try and try but I cannot see
All the things that come over me
When I lay my head on my pillow
And fall deep into undying sleep.

The things I think, the things I see
It's something that people around me
Will never see.
It's something that I can't describe,
And whenever I speak about it
I get a nasty vibe.

Horror in my mind.
I am a person that people
Don't even try to find.
I try to be what people want me to be
It might be good for them, but it isn't for me.

So I try and try but I still can't see
All the things that come over me.
So just leave me alone
Go away!
Don't bother trying, everyone knows
That I'm not okay.

Depression is me.
Happiness is just a dream.
Love is at the bottom of every Smirnoff bottle.
Hate is all I have left.
Hurt is all I can feel.

I try to forget it all
And in the end...
I just fall.