it's been a while

[starrydreams05]

omg! i havent updated in 4 ever. lol well let see here. i been going to school...and yeah thats always fun...no not really lol. school has been alright. not too bad. just tryin to get my hw done and stuff. work is going good. i had to work friday night and saturday.friday after work..i went and got kendra and we met up with kenny,cadan, and alex at the bowling alley..we chilled there for a lil bit and then headed over to famos amos. i swear it was a night of the ex's.lol i saw drew first..and alex was with us. and then CJ came up there. i was like what the heck?lol then chris came up there..well then me and kendra headed back to my house cause we had curfew. well chris was supposed to go get ricky and bring him to my house..but it took them forever cause they had to go to ricky friend house first. well kendra fell aslepp on the driveway and then we headed into the house..well as soon as we started to fall asleep...my phone starts to ring and its chris saying they were on their way. it was like freaking 3 am.so they stayed here about and hour. we didnt get to sleep until 4 something and had to wake up a few hours later. i was runnin gon 3 hours of sleep that day! lol but oh well. well after work on saturday i came home and cleaned up the house and then took a shower and got ready to go out. so i got ready and then met up with kendra and her mom at the mall...we were there killing time for a couple hourse cause we were having a surprise birthday party for uncle jack. and we were getting him gifts. so anyway while me and kendra are sitting on the bench by champs these 2 guys walk in and the one is just starring like crazy. we were like ewww! lol what the heck. so i'm talkin to kendra and he comes back out of no where and i didnt see him. he was like ..."excuse me..do you have a boyfriend?" lol i told him yes...lol i'm so mean. i dont have a bf. ha! but oh well. so the suprise birthday party was pretty good. ate some food and hung out..then we left to go to the movies. we met up with andrew,sheri,and james. then kenny, cadan, alex, and this other girl came up there. we went and saw the exorcist. damn that movie was freaky!!!! lol me and kendra were all jumpy and getting scared. it was so funny. so right after the movie i left. and called chris and then went over to his house for a lil bit. it was so funny..his friends aint right lol. but not going to go into that. but yeah it was good to see him. he was supposed to go to the movies with us but he got called into work. he was so mad. but its all good..we got to see eachother afterwards. well now i'm sitting here chillen at home. prolly goin to clean up my room. and then i'm not sure what i'm doing..so i needs to get going. holla! Sylvia

Poem of the Day:
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I'm so afraid of opening up
to allow another into my heart
seems impossible and frightening
fromt he fear of once again
being torn apart

so how do you trust?
when is it "ok" to believe all those
precious words one might say?
how do you know what feelings
are real enough to let in?

i fear i may be lingering into a trap
as if i'm setting up for another heart break
its like any moment now it will snap
and all of what i thought i had will be gone.
and i'll think "the feelings weren't real they were fake"

i'm hoping that these feelings are real
and i'm slowly letting this one in my heart
maybe this one is different and will be
someone who can trust.

wrote by: Sylvia 8/16/04