truth,decisions, and pain...

[starrydreams05]

well today was pretty good for the most part..but anyway, i went on my interview and that went pretty good. after that i went over to paul's house and chilled and then we met up with kazzie for lunch at ci ci pizza. that was fun stuff. i saw abi there...havent seen him in for ever..well anyway while paul and i were waiting the people from my interview called and saud that they want me to come in for training next week. i was like sweet. so yeah. afterwards i had a doctors appointment. and that went well um....came home and ate some dinner and then cleaned up the kitchen. oh me and dustin went out on our friendly outing. that was alot of fun. i had a good time. we went to adventure landing and played putt putt, laser tag...it was fun stuff..we were the only two people in the laser tag room. it was great. i won. well then we headed over to star bucks and got some coffee stuff it was really good. yummy. yeah so on my way home i stopped by gary's house to see what he was doing..yeah...which brings me to the subject of this entry...just a word of advice..dont wait til the last minute to realize and tell someone how u feel. or dont try and wait for an ex to come back when you got a great person right in front you..but ur too blinded by ur ex to even see it. make the right decisions...but dont make them too late. u might not get what u actually want because it may not want u back....i do realize i made the wrong decision...and if only i can prove to this person how i truly feel...i just dont know anymore..i was trying tell the truth about how i felt and i made him feel like crap and upset..and now i'm sorry i said anything. all i want is for him to be happy and if its not with me...then thats just something i have to deal with. he doesnt deserve to be unhappy. he deserves so much more. and i feel just horrible but i will be fine. i just dont know what to do any more...whats right to do? so far i think i might have done all the wrong things to do. will i ever do something right. well i hope i can still have him as a friend..that would be something. if only there was a way to prove that what i say is what i mean. well..i guess i will wait and see what happens..so i'll holla back later...peace out..sylvia

Quote of the day:"If you truly like someone go for them, dont spend too much time thinking about it. cause when you at least expected they may already be taken..."