my life as it would appear on the big screen
boy meets girl. girl likes boy. boy likes girl's best friend. boy goes out with girl's best friend. boy breaks up with girl's best friend. boy goes out with girl. boy breaks girl's heart. boy goes out AGAIN with girl's best friend. boy regrets this and tells girl (while with a new boy) that he's wants girl. girl breaks up with new boy. boy likes girl. girl likes boy. neither have the guts to do anything especially girl because she doesn't know if she can go out with boy again. girl finally goes out with boy. boy and girl are very good. boy becomes distant. boy breaks girl's heart... AGAIN. boy and girl don't talk for a looooong time. boy comes to his senses and starts talking to girl again. boy and girl are friends again. boy and girl get close again. boy and girl get REALLY close (if you know what i mean). boy doesn't want committment. girl goes out with boy's best friend (no not revenge). boy gets jealous, doesn't see girl. girl and boy's best friend break up because girl wants to be with boy AGAIN. (is she stupid? who knows?) boy tells her he loves her. boy gives her many happy times. then POOF one day, out of the CLEAR FUCKING BLUE, boy breaks up with girl. girl cries like she's never cried before in her life. girl goes into deep depression. girl smokes until she is sick. then when all smoking that can be done is done, girl gets into hot bath and cuts herself with a razor. girl hurts. emotionally and physically, but mostly emotionally. girl never loves again. girl dies an old maid who hasn't had sex since she was 20 and became a nun 5 years later.
what an ending! and all because of a stupid boy who can't make up his mind about what he wants so he hurts the girl he "loves" instead of discussing things with her cuz he's a big pussy and heaven forbid he be open with his emotions!
so that ending was just made up after the whole smoking too much. but yeah, i guess you could say i'm a little bitter. its just that we've been friends for 5 years now, that's right... FIVE YEARS!!!! and he can't even be honest with me about why he broke up with me. but wouldn't you be bitter? i think you would. anyway, i've gotta go smoke or pass out or maybe just go to bed...
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*iloveshawnheisthebestboyeverandhesmyfavoriteperson*