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hi Live Journal. long time no chat. well its almost 2010. shit im old. ha. I know I havent written in a while, since school is over I guess i feel like i havent felt the need to write about my feelings on paper but let me tell you, its been a week of hell. three weeks ago now my mom got her period. she ended up in a lot of pain and hemeridging. (spelling?) but the doctor told her that it was a normal part of menaupause being over. then it happened again last monday and i rushed her to the hospital; and she has been there the seven days. they ended up giving her 7 pints of blood total. even when the doctors told her originally that it would only be 2-4 pints. they just couldnt get the bleeding to stop, and being on blood thinners for 3 years doesnt really help. the coumadin is actually probably the source of the problem. originally they decided that removing her uterous wasnt emergency surgery but then she got sicker and decided to keep her and made the appointment for 4 days later. wednesday shes getting the surgery and she will be home 2-4 days after that. so a bergmann christmas is up in the air. at least I have a de soto one to fall back on. scratch that, like 4 de soto family christmases to fall back on. i want so bad to be a part of his family. well, more then i already am, officially ya know. did i mension mother nature dumped a foot and a half of cold white shit everywhere. and its DECEMBER. dont remember moving to buffolo. so its a white christmas, doesnt happen so often, cant really remember the last time it happened,couldnt even look up stats on it. im sick, i tried. lol the first like 6 inches is always fun, but when you get snowed in places and cant go anywhere, it gets annoying. at least its pretty =)
Ill tell ya I have been so good this week. I have definately showed to my mother that I could handle my life without her. In a good way of course. I did my own laundry, the dishes, whatever she needed she got. i have been back and forth to the hospital every day since. its been rough. and oh yea, I havent finished my shopping yet, greatttt. its me and robs second christmas together and its 3 days away and I didnt buy him anything yet, the good news is that he has been great this past week, really taking care of me, looking out for me, being a good boy. My brother hes a different story. yesterday there were some events that lead up to me tracking him down at new girlfriends house, and me putting a hole in her wall. I was pushed and there happened to be a doorknob attached to a door that I fell against. pretty self explanatory. his brirthday is tomorrow, he aint getting anything but coal.
I actually see a lot of good things coming out of this. im excited for my new/old mom to come home. I want things to be back before she went crazy, and I think that maybe off the meds and no pms will help. its a dream... honestly shes acting different already. wishful dreaming hopeful thinking.
I have been so proud of myself though this. ALSO im going to the doctor on new years eve day- and im getting myself some HAPPY pills. hyeahhhhh I think im really growing up.
started thinking about my new years resolutions. so far:
Go to the gym more often
go to the GYM more often
play my guitar
keep up with old friends
write and read more often
play video games
dance
sssit.
most of it is really time management, things i want to do, just dont really have the "time" to.
coolbeans.
going to bed, maybe a little pokemon before sleepy time.
goodnight moon
p.s. really sorry I havent been writing, lately all my computer time is being taken up by Farmville, treasure madness, and petville. Im special like that, im a little addicted but cutting back <3
Ill tell ya I have been so good this week. I have definately showed to my mother that I could handle my life without her. In a good way of course. I did my own laundry, the dishes, whatever she needed she got. i have been back and forth to the hospital every day since. its been rough. and oh yea, I havent finished my shopping yet, greatttt. its me and robs second christmas together and its 3 days away and I didnt buy him anything yet, the good news is that he has been great this past week, really taking care of me, looking out for me, being a good boy. My brother hes a different story. yesterday there were some events that lead up to me tracking him down at new girlfriends house, and me putting a hole in her wall. I was pushed and there happened to be a doorknob attached to a door that I fell against. pretty self explanatory. his brirthday is tomorrow, he aint getting anything but coal.
I actually see a lot of good things coming out of this. im excited for my new/old mom to come home. I want things to be back before she went crazy, and I think that maybe off the meds and no pms will help. its a dream... honestly shes acting different already. wishful dreaming hopeful thinking.
I have been so proud of myself though this. ALSO im going to the doctor on new years eve day- and im getting myself some HAPPY pills. hyeahhhhh I think im really growing up.
started thinking about my new years resolutions. so far:
Go to the gym more often
go to the GYM more often
play my guitar
keep up with old friends
write and read more often
play video games
dance
sssit.
most of it is really time management, things i want to do, just dont really have the "time" to.
coolbeans.
going to bed, maybe a little pokemon before sleepy time.
goodnight moon
p.s. really sorry I havent been writing, lately all my computer time is being taken up by Farmville, treasure madness, and petville. Im special like that, im a little addicted but cutting back <3