coming up for air

Jun 13, 2010 21:04

So... It's been a very long time since I made any non-private entries here. I've been very extremely overwhelmed.

It's been a roughest semester I can remember. I've suffered through five full classes (which would be more than overwhelming enough just on its own) plus extra administrative duties, several major and minor health issues, and the death of my father (almost exactly a month ago now, but I'm still struggling to internalize it).

Then, suddenly just a week ago, I turned in all my grades, and it was like coming up for air after nearly drowning-- and I'm still too stunned to know quite how to breathe. It feels almost alien just to lounge around the house and relax, read some books purely for pleasure and interest, give more time to my daughter, husband, and girlfriend, etc.

I haven't done anything particularly special. I haven't done much at all, really. It's been a relatively "unproductive" week, but it's sure been nice!-- a good and simple week-long "stay-cation" that I'm appreciating better in hindsight than when I was living it.

However... I now very much need to get my proverbial butt in gear and find something useful to do. There certainly are plenty of constructive things I've been putting off for far too long that are now calling/screaming for my attention. Alas, I also need to get cracking before my usual seasonal summer depression hits, or I'll never be able to find my motivation. (#sigh# This weekend's hot weather didn't help with that. Ah, well.)

work, father, family

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