I'm like a lawyer with all the ways I'm getting you off
"The best way to make it through with heart and wrists intact is to realize that two out of three ain't bad."
I can't even began to try to be eloquent here. I don't want to be either, I think. I keep trying to find some suave little line to steal or give so that everything will be okay in my own mind. But the truth is that I'm failing. At everything.
"I could learn to pity fools as I'm the worst of all. And I can't stop feeling sorry for myself."
One particular person calls me or messages me and asks "How are you holding up?" How the fuck am I supposed to respond to that?
"I'm not holding up. Not even a little." And they'll give a token "mwah" or something of that sort. Don't. Just fucking don't. I'm not even going to reply to that question anymore. Or I'll just lie. That works too. Because do you really care if its a lie or not?
My moods are going "BOOM" and I hate it. I can't control this. I can't force myself to level out right now. Its just too hard for me at the moment. I'm spiraling and all I can do is say "Oooo look at all the pretty red."
I can't even began to try to be eloquent here. I don't want to be either, I think. I keep trying to find some suave little line to steal or give so that everything will be okay in my own mind. But the truth is that I'm failing. At everything.
"I could learn to pity fools as I'm the worst of all. And I can't stop feeling sorry for myself."
One particular person calls me or messages me and asks "How are you holding up?" How the fuck am I supposed to respond to that?
"I'm not holding up. Not even a little." And they'll give a token "mwah" or something of that sort. Don't. Just fucking don't. I'm not even going to reply to that question anymore. Or I'll just lie. That works too. Because do you really care if its a lie or not?
My moods are going "BOOM" and I hate it. I can't control this. I can't force myself to level out right now. Its just too hard for me at the moment. I'm spiraling and all I can do is say "Oooo look at all the pretty red."