Jul 21, 2007 10:45
Based on pictures that I've seen on facebook, it seems like so many people are getting married. People that have just recently graduated from College, people still IN College, people around our age. As much as I am ready to marry Jeremy (since I know that he's "the one") I think the whole marriage thing scares me more than I originally thought it did. Not as much the commitment and living our whole lives together, as the planning, money needed for and preparation for the wedding strikes fear in me. Maybe that would explain my wanting a long engagement. It allows time and preparation for the actual event.
Since Jeremy and I have been together for a good amount of time and we know that we want to be together, a lot of our friends have already (and some - for awhile now) told me that they're impatiently wanting us to get married - NOW (or as many suggested, next summer)... Which, no offense, I think is RIDICULOUS. As much as I'd like to start "sharing a life together" with Jeremy, I really don't think I'm 100% ready for the wedding yet. Engagement - maybe...somewhere in the near future I hope. But there's plenty of time for a wedding and I think right now Jeremy and I just enjoy spending time together and leading our own individual lives for the moment.. There WILL be a wedding sometime in the future, but let's hope it won't be the VERY NEAR future..atleast not yet.
Not to sound completely out of my mind, but I think I'm more ready for a baby than I am for a wedding. I know it sounds a little ridiculous since most people would rank having a baby as something to do AFTER getting married, but I really REALLY want one. If you know me well enough you know that I LOVE little kids. Not in that gross way, but in a "OMGTHEYARETHECUTESTTHINGSINTHEWORLDANDIWANTTOTAKECAREOFALLOFTHEM" kind of way. Needless to say, I've had a lot of previous experience with taking care of little kids - having a million younger cousins and whatnot. But babies and children are so cute and adorable and I know that they require A LOT of time, effort, money and patience. However, I feel like I could really take care of a baby and give it all of the love that it needs. :) *sigh* I know I won't be having one anytime soon though..I guess it's a good thing that Jeremy is much more practical than I am (and may ever be) and thinks things through before doing them.
*sigh* I guess I should be more worried about how well I do on the GRE and what graduate schools will actually accept me before I start worrying about babies and weddings though... :(