...needle through the veins...blood slowly trickles out...
you know things are so difficult to put into words...someone articulate is hard to run across and i guess its just so hard to understand sometimes...man i wish i could say what i needed to say...here i go: watching romance movies all my life has in a way sabatoged my mind. its killed me because now in life i try to transform these people that i love into something that they're not...i try to leave subtle little clues directing them and kind of trying to tell them what to do what it is that i want them to do for me...no more i guess...whatever happens will happen for a reason the sun's shining after the rain and im sitting on the floor anticipating if you're coming or not...i dont think you will today or tomorrow or the next day...i guess i can only hope...you tell meeh you're coming it's a surprise...my i wait here with watering eyes...im contemplating dreaming of something that would happen...{dream}::will he come to my house knock on the door and not say a word and just kiss me...would he do that...would he just kiss me and have that speak for him...{dream}::would he come and get down on his knees in front of me and tell me just how much he loves me and as i begin to cry would he wipe away my tears from my eyes
would he do any of this would he come to me...wihtout me asking would he just come...run to me...just to hold me...times like these make me wonder am i asking too much of someone for those little things that make me the happiest??