life is never-ending until you're dead.
it's snowing outside. well, it's doing tennessee's version of snowing outside. it makes me miss home. it also makes me laugh because, in tennessee, flurries (the kind that melt even before they touch the ground, therefore resulting in no accumulation) cause both mass hysteria and 4-car pile-ups on evey major highway from memphis to atlanta. this morning, vol state's opening was delayed until 10am. there was no snow on the ground. i won't complain, though. partly because it's actually kind of nice to get a break from weekly blizzards. partly because it's fun to laugh at how hysterical a flake every 20 minutes makes people. mostly, i think, it's just because i got to sleep in until 8 this morning. plus my economics test was cancelled.
things have been crazy. i had to drop my stats class. i got all weepy when i considered that it might mean losing my financial aid eligibility from vol state for next semester. i got over that real quick when i remembered it doesn't matter because i won't be at vol state next semester. i also felt quite dumb for awhile after that. like the village idiot who can't make graphs. i got over it real quick, though. the rebound was so impressive, in fact, that i am considering dropping my terrible-horrible-no good-very bad economics class while i'm at it. i have given up making myself take classes i'll fail anyway. i think that's a problem. they might call that lack of ambition. eh.
i have also come to the realization that i probably won't be able to afford the extra $6000 a year it'll cost me to transfer back to wsc next year. i just applied to the university of memphis and the university of tennessee at martin, the former being my top choice. i haven't told anyone outside of my family about this, yet. i have a feeling it will make some people upset. believe me, it makes me upset, too. however, i need to think of the rest of my life. i need to think realistically that $6000 is a lot of money and public school teachers in innner-city schools make the farthest thing from a lot of money. i can't afford to have a $500-a-month loan payment until i'm 50. it's not realistic. grrrr. i don't know. this is even assuming that my gpa will be high enough to transfer into a 4 year school. my life is such a bowl of peaches, seriously. and i am doing such a good job at helping myself get where i need to be. really.
i should go. i have to read a 30 page article on the long-range effects of emotional and behavioral problems in early childhood on edcational attainment in adolescence. the (sad) thing is i am actually looking forward to it.
things have been crazy. i had to drop my stats class. i got all weepy when i considered that it might mean losing my financial aid eligibility from vol state for next semester. i got over that real quick when i remembered it doesn't matter because i won't be at vol state next semester. i also felt quite dumb for awhile after that. like the village idiot who can't make graphs. i got over it real quick, though. the rebound was so impressive, in fact, that i am considering dropping my terrible-horrible-no good-very bad economics class while i'm at it. i have given up making myself take classes i'll fail anyway. i think that's a problem. they might call that lack of ambition. eh.
i have also come to the realization that i probably won't be able to afford the extra $6000 a year it'll cost me to transfer back to wsc next year. i just applied to the university of memphis and the university of tennessee at martin, the former being my top choice. i haven't told anyone outside of my family about this, yet. i have a feeling it will make some people upset. believe me, it makes me upset, too. however, i need to think of the rest of my life. i need to think realistically that $6000 is a lot of money and public school teachers in innner-city schools make the farthest thing from a lot of money. i can't afford to have a $500-a-month loan payment until i'm 50. it's not realistic. grrrr. i don't know. this is even assuming that my gpa will be high enough to transfer into a 4 year school. my life is such a bowl of peaches, seriously. and i am doing such a good job at helping myself get where i need to be. really.
i should go. i have to read a 30 page article on the long-range effects of emotional and behavioral problems in early childhood on edcational attainment in adolescence. the (sad) thing is i am actually looking forward to it.