of a silent post
I
have no reason to emo.
There's a man, an old man, who saw his son die before him.
There's a person, who's torn between her parents' fights and pressured to choose sides by one of them.
There's a girl, who's financially unstable. Her mom's shop had to close down due to lack of business, her dad can only do odd jobs due to his heart condition and she has a schooling younger bro. Last January, her dad passed away.
What a tragedy it is, to live so old. You lived so old to bring up a family and succeeded. The sweat and blood, tears and pain, all for your family. When you can finally sit in your lazy chair and look at young grandchildren quarrel among themselves, and smile to yourself, your son leaves the world before you.
What pressure it is, when your two main support caves in. When mom and dad fight and include their chlidren. Even worse, to have to choose sides when in actuality, it is relly none of your bussiness.
What a tragedy it is, to support your family when so young. To have parents who fail to be 'parents'. To have immature siblings, stubborn to the insides and yet, the parents prefer them more. To worry about bills when others worry about the latest fashion trends. To already be emotionally weak and then, have responsibilities thrown to you.
So,
I have no reason to emo.
There's a soul, who's always there for me. I want to be there for her but she's too strong. But I know, and hope she does too (though I think she does), however strong you are, you need somebody. I'm glad we have a mutual bond but she's still hard to reach. She holding out her hand in the shadows, I try to grab it but it's hard. But she's always there for me, no matter the issue.
So please kind person out/up there, let it be easier for her. We all know she's a good person ne.
All I have is myself. The problems I have are created by myself.
Paranoia, excessive thinking and mild insomnia;
If I had a higher self-esteem, it wouldn't be a problem to actually believe in what I do. And do it for myself. If the paranoia goes, I wouldn't overthink a simple statement. If I don't overthink every time, sleep would be easier.
Nowadays, when alone, I'd feel lonely. And the thoughts would just come in.
The idiot boy, my freinds and sometimes, family and career.
But all these are induced by myself. I don't have deaths or critical finacial issues. My parents fight but I understand part of the reason. No major external factors to actually depress myself.
So,
I have no reason to emo.
The mind is a scary thing.
have no reason to emo.
There's a man, an old man, who saw his son die before him.
There's a person, who's torn between her parents' fights and pressured to choose sides by one of them.
There's a girl, who's financially unstable. Her mom's shop had to close down due to lack of business, her dad can only do odd jobs due to his heart condition and she has a schooling younger bro. Last January, her dad passed away.
What a tragedy it is, to live so old. You lived so old to bring up a family and succeeded. The sweat and blood, tears and pain, all for your family. When you can finally sit in your lazy chair and look at young grandchildren quarrel among themselves, and smile to yourself, your son leaves the world before you.
What pressure it is, when your two main support caves in. When mom and dad fight and include their chlidren. Even worse, to have to choose sides when in actuality, it is relly none of your bussiness.
What a tragedy it is, to support your family when so young. To have parents who fail to be 'parents'. To have immature siblings, stubborn to the insides and yet, the parents prefer them more. To worry about bills when others worry about the latest fashion trends. To already be emotionally weak and then, have responsibilities thrown to you.
So,
I have no reason to emo.
There's a soul, who's always there for me. I want to be there for her but she's too strong. But I know, and hope she does too (though I think she does), however strong you are, you need somebody. I'm glad we have a mutual bond but she's still hard to reach. She holding out her hand in the shadows, I try to grab it but it's hard. But she's always there for me, no matter the issue.
So please kind person out/up there, let it be easier for her. We all know she's a good person ne.
All I have is myself. The problems I have are created by myself.
Paranoia, excessive thinking and mild insomnia;
If I had a higher self-esteem, it wouldn't be a problem to actually believe in what I do. And do it for myself. If the paranoia goes, I wouldn't overthink a simple statement. If I don't overthink every time, sleep would be easier.
Nowadays, when alone, I'd feel lonely. And the thoughts would just come in.
The idiot boy, my freinds and sometimes, family and career.
But all these are induced by myself. I don't have deaths or critical finacial issues. My parents fight but I understand part of the reason. No major external factors to actually depress myself.
So,
I have no reason to emo.
The mind is a scary thing.