Changes, cont'd.
I wrote a long, drawn out entry about how pot is affecting my life. It was too much. The short version looks like this:
I'm constantly worried about money, so much so that I feel anxious every moment of the day. Even when money wasn't an issue, I was still anxious all the time anyway.
anxious young woman + money issues + pressure = unbearable stress
It really does feel like my life is unbearably stressful. And that leads to smoking a lot of weed. Weed melts stress.
It also melts money, which only fuels my anxiety more.
Identifying the reasons I smoke so much isn't enough, so I've decided to see a therapist and do something to help myself. I've been holding in so much about so many things, and I need to talk about it before this all gets worse.
I'm hoping that with therapy and by making small self-improvements, I can learn to be a happy, well-adjusted person who doesn't need any kind of substance to get through a day.
I'm constantly worried about money, so much so that I feel anxious every moment of the day. Even when money wasn't an issue, I was still anxious all the time anyway.
anxious young woman + money issues + pressure = unbearable stress
It really does feel like my life is unbearably stressful. And that leads to smoking a lot of weed. Weed melts stress.
It also melts money, which only fuels my anxiety more.
Identifying the reasons I smoke so much isn't enough, so I've decided to see a therapist and do something to help myself. I've been holding in so much about so many things, and I need to talk about it before this all gets worse.
I'm hoping that with therapy and by making small self-improvements, I can learn to be a happy, well-adjusted person who doesn't need any kind of substance to get through a day.