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So it's always a constant thought in my head why i always still care about people who probaly don't deserve it or have somehow hurt me in a way. And for some reason i always end up with that's it my fault and i'm just stupid for still caring and having feelings. But then i got to thinking i will never apologize or explain to anyone why i still care about people. I will never say sorry for caring about people that at one time meant a lot to me at some point in my life. This goes for any kind of relationship i had with a person. Why should i blame myself for having a heart and feelings. Even if people haven't treated me the way they should i still go on caring about them. This might not make sense to others and might make me look like i'm weak still caring. But in a way i think instead of showing weakness it's more stronger. Because i can look at a relationship i had and understand that sometimes things just don't work out. And not look back on it with a negative point of view and just learn from it and have fond memories of a certain time in my life. Also that i had a opportunity to share times with these people and maybe even walk away learning something.
So he's been on my mind a lot today. I miss sitting on his couch watching sex in the city with him, and feeling that comfort laying next to him. Or how he could make the most drunkin conversation into a really heartwarming one:). I gave him his space then he decided to text me. I'm not sure if it was just for that reason it was a simple text or if it was a way to get back in my life. Either way it doesn't really matter. He's with her now and i hope she's everything he needs. Cause for once i was the one who got scared and didn't think i could be that girl for him. Who knows what really could have been but i'm a strong believer when it's said if things are meant to be it will be. For now i'll just be thankful i got the chance to have him in my life for a short time. I honestly don't think badly about him after everything i just know we were at two different stages in our life.
Sorry for this random and pointles entry but it was something i had to get out all day.
So he's been on my mind a lot today. I miss sitting on his couch watching sex in the city with him, and feeling that comfort laying next to him. Or how he could make the most drunkin conversation into a really heartwarming one:). I gave him his space then he decided to text me. I'm not sure if it was just for that reason it was a simple text or if it was a way to get back in my life. Either way it doesn't really matter. He's with her now and i hope she's everything he needs. Cause for once i was the one who got scared and didn't think i could be that girl for him. Who knows what really could have been but i'm a strong believer when it's said if things are meant to be it will be. For now i'll just be thankful i got the chance to have him in my life for a short time. I honestly don't think badly about him after everything i just know we were at two different stages in our life.
Sorry for this random and pointles entry but it was something i had to get out all day.