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So today i'm in a wierd funk..like an uneasy feeling about people.
People just often let me down and by letting down i mean they just prove my theories about people right. I know i can't do anything about people's choices or control their actions. But it's just frusterating when people are exactly what you thought they were gonna be. By that i mean i often don't really care for many girls i know it sounds so judgemental and i know it sounds caddy. But seeing some of the way girls act around each other causing unnessary drama. I know i'm not one to say anything yes, every girl can admit she's caused drama but at the same time some people just never seem to stop. And as for guys sometimes i really don't think i'll ever find one that's "different". One that actually proves to me that there's a nice guy out that with good intentions. I want to meet a guy that i can just talk to for hours, do nothing with and still have the greatest time, and just be myself around and not have to pretend with. But for some reason i can't find anything but guys who play constant games, decide to call me when it's a good time for them,and basically treat me like crap. Wow i sound really bitter about people right now ha. Don't get me wrong i have some of the most amazing people in my life and i think the world of them. I just wish i could meet more people that i think more highly about.
So i'm just about done moving into my new apartment. It's fun but at the same time doesn't really feel like home yet. It's wierd not seeing my mom everyday. I mean i know it's gonna take time so we'll see how it goes. Trying not to spend money is extremely hard..going to a mall and coming out with nothing is almost inpossible ha. But i'm sure i'll get used to that sometime soon lol.
I'm starting to look for a new job..i adore my kids and can't imagine not seeing them everyday. But at the same time i just don't agree with the way my boss does anything anymore and it's getting extremely hard to like work anymore. Plus i'd like to look for a preschool closer to home to make it easier.
School starts in a few weeks...just after taking a semester off it's gonna be hard to get back into the swing of school. But it might do good for me to help me keep busy and so i can get closer to finally finishing school someday lol.
So a lot of things have changed and i think the coming months are gonna bring a lot more changes. But i think all the changes are helping me to realize what i'm wanting to do in life and who i'm really becoming. Growing up is fun at times but sometimes the responsiblities get overwelming.
Ok sorry about the venting but i just needed to get it out<3.
People just often let me down and by letting down i mean they just prove my theories about people right. I know i can't do anything about people's choices or control their actions. But it's just frusterating when people are exactly what you thought they were gonna be. By that i mean i often don't really care for many girls i know it sounds so judgemental and i know it sounds caddy. But seeing some of the way girls act around each other causing unnessary drama. I know i'm not one to say anything yes, every girl can admit she's caused drama but at the same time some people just never seem to stop. And as for guys sometimes i really don't think i'll ever find one that's "different". One that actually proves to me that there's a nice guy out that with good intentions. I want to meet a guy that i can just talk to for hours, do nothing with and still have the greatest time, and just be myself around and not have to pretend with. But for some reason i can't find anything but guys who play constant games, decide to call me when it's a good time for them,and basically treat me like crap. Wow i sound really bitter about people right now ha. Don't get me wrong i have some of the most amazing people in my life and i think the world of them. I just wish i could meet more people that i think more highly about.
So i'm just about done moving into my new apartment. It's fun but at the same time doesn't really feel like home yet. It's wierd not seeing my mom everyday. I mean i know it's gonna take time so we'll see how it goes. Trying not to spend money is extremely hard..going to a mall and coming out with nothing is almost inpossible ha. But i'm sure i'll get used to that sometime soon lol.
I'm starting to look for a new job..i adore my kids and can't imagine not seeing them everyday. But at the same time i just don't agree with the way my boss does anything anymore and it's getting extremely hard to like work anymore. Plus i'd like to look for a preschool closer to home to make it easier.
School starts in a few weeks...just after taking a semester off it's gonna be hard to get back into the swing of school. But it might do good for me to help me keep busy and so i can get closer to finally finishing school someday lol.
So a lot of things have changed and i think the coming months are gonna bring a lot more changes. But i think all the changes are helping me to realize what i'm wanting to do in life and who i'm really becoming. Growing up is fun at times but sometimes the responsiblities get overwelming.
Ok sorry about the venting but i just needed to get it out<3.