more frustrated musings...

[starrose080]

why is it that i keep looking back? is a moment of weakness thing and i just miss what was because i don't have anything like it now? or do i actually miss it? i shouldn't. i have more than enough reason to hate the whole idea of what i miss, but... i still find myself missing it. wtf?

screw it all. maybe i just need a good lay... or the closest thing to it