shitty mood
hey. i just want to cry about everything lately. last night i cried for a long time. i couldnt stop. i could barely breathe. then today after practice my knees hurt a little and my mom said something stupid and i cried then to. god. i hate to cry.
i rented some movies tonight. since i will be home alone. grounded. woohoo. after being grounded for 2 months last summer, i do not take being grounded well at all.i was kinda excited cuz i was gonna hang out with courtney and val tonight but i guess not now. and i was gonna go to that thing at the college tomorrow but im not doin that now either. and my dad is on his way home. bad day at work. and he hasnt said anything to me in quite a while except for last night when he basically said he has lost all hope in me and i dont care about anything and he thought i was better than i have turned out to be. so im just sitting here now drinking a smoothy. waiting for a taco. hoping he stays out kinda late tonight. and is asleep when i go to wenatchee in the morning.
my mom asked me if i want to go to spokane with her on the 1st to look for a dress for prom and i was like heck yes, can kt come. and she was like ya bla bla bla...oh but u will be gounded. and i was like that is 2 fricken weeks away!!!!!! what do u mean i will still be grounded!?!?! i flippen hate everything. and she was like....oh well.....maybe u wont be. u can bring kt either way. dont worry about it, we will see how it goes. well 'will see how it goes, dont worry about it' is easy for her to say cuz she isnt the one whose grounded. she can leave whenever she wants. guhhhhh. anyways, i dont want to think about this anymore. i dont want to type about it, or talk about it, im gonna eat some tacos, watch a movie and hope to fall asleep early!
i rented some movies tonight. since i will be home alone. grounded. woohoo. after being grounded for 2 months last summer, i do not take being grounded well at all.i was kinda excited cuz i was gonna hang out with courtney and val tonight but i guess not now. and i was gonna go to that thing at the college tomorrow but im not doin that now either. and my dad is on his way home. bad day at work. and he hasnt said anything to me in quite a while except for last night when he basically said he has lost all hope in me and i dont care about anything and he thought i was better than i have turned out to be. so im just sitting here now drinking a smoothy. waiting for a taco. hoping he stays out kinda late tonight. and is asleep when i go to wenatchee in the morning.
my mom asked me if i want to go to spokane with her on the 1st to look for a dress for prom and i was like heck yes, can kt come. and she was like ya bla bla bla...oh but u will be gounded. and i was like that is 2 fricken weeks away!!!!!! what do u mean i will still be grounded!?!?! i flippen hate everything. and she was like....oh well.....maybe u wont be. u can bring kt either way. dont worry about it, we will see how it goes. well 'will see how it goes, dont worry about it' is easy for her to say cuz she isnt the one whose grounded. she can leave whenever she wants. guhhhhh. anyways, i dont want to think about this anymore. i dont want to type about it, or talk about it, im gonna eat some tacos, watch a movie and hope to fall asleep early!