Say You Love Me. Thats All I Ask Of You
Well, today was...kinda sucky. We had childrens theater, and I truly realized how tough it is to do tech. In the sense that, youre excluded from stuff. I mean, I was sitting there, and everyone is talking about the show and etc, and I just felt really rejected or something. And I always try to involve myself, but it was like since I wasnt in the actual cast, I didnt count or something. And I asked Ashley if she felt the same way, and she said definitely. She told me its always really awkward and stuff. But then Kyle saw me cleaning up everyones crap, so he came and helped me. Then we laughed about how my position is actually pretty humorous. "No, no, thats my job." I am so fortunate to know him, because he always can sense when Im not in a good mood, and he somehow knows how to make me laugh. Thats a feat, because when Im in a bad mood, I usually dont want to talk to anyone. But he always cheers me up, so I was glad he was there. All in all, although it was really hard for me to not be in the cast, Im glad I got this experience. It makes me appreciate the technical side of theater, and the people who bust their asses to do it. And dont get any recognition for it. It is a very, very humbling experience. If I didnt make anything again, I dont know if Id do tech or not. Today was just really hard, but its over now so I feel better. I feel like driving somewhere completely random and doing something random. If it was Saturday, I might do that. However, I must be back at Minooka in a half hour for VOCALS WITH RANDY, aka HELL. There really isnt another word to describe it, other than...HELL. Oh, and as a side note--I need the Phantom cd...NOW.