if only in my dreams
spending a christmas alone in a city that is part home, part adventure is a little disorienting. for weeks now, no one has talked about anything besides christmas. i've been asked what my plans are by a thousand people, or so it seems, everyone from strangers to co-workers. and no one seems to find my answer appropriate. they "aww" and say "that's too bad" and then go to the next more comfortable question. but while i miss being home for christmas, its not so much being home for christmas, but being home for the nostalgia of christmas - the caroling, the