But the sun still shines in the summertime...
Even before I woke up this morning I was thinking summer. I mean, I wasnt dreaming, but I wasnt awake either. It was like when you are sort of half consious of whats going on around you but your eyes are still closed and your body is still asleep...like you are asleep but your brain is almost awake. Ok im a dork, anyway, i want summer. I know yesterday I said that I dont want summer, but today I do. God im weird. Ive been feeling summer ALL day today though...I cant get last years fourth of july out of my head, even though nothing monumentious happened. I just hung out with natalie during the day then at home with natalie and my parents had a bunch of people over. Nothing EXTREMELY special. But it was just the complete feeling of summer that permeated the day...the freedom, the relaxation, the happiness, everything. I loved the fact that I could go out wearing a tank top and not have to bring a sweatshirt with me.
Then I think about how much fun I have when I see all of my friends every day and I want to keep having school. I think about how much fun musical is, and how much I love knowing that I still have four more shows to do. I think about how much I am going to miss the seniors that are graduating this year...especially the swimmers. City finals was so bittersweet in that way. It was a great meet, but it was also the last meet for a lot of those people, and if not the last meet ever, the last meet they would ever swim for pali high. Thats when im glad im a sophmore and not a senior. I dont want high school to be over. I wish I had more than two years to achieve everything I want to do. Two years doesnt seem like much time to get everything done anymore...it used to seem like an eternity but not anymore. Ive been in school for almost my entire life except for three years. Now I dont want to have to choose what im going to study in college...I dont want to have to choose which college im going to go to...I want to be around the people who are familiar to me, I dont want to go to a whole new place, make new friends...I LIKE the friends that I have.
Ok, so I dont know what I want. If I could have both that would be great, but I cant, so I have to pick one. Right now I'll settle for summer but at the same time, I dont want my childhood to end. I wish I could just stop time in one perfect moment and keep it that way forever.
"I don't wanna grow up, I dont wanna wear a tie, in the middle of July..."
Then I think about how much fun I have when I see all of my friends every day and I want to keep having school. I think about how much fun musical is, and how much I love knowing that I still have four more shows to do. I think about how much I am going to miss the seniors that are graduating this year...especially the swimmers. City finals was so bittersweet in that way. It was a great meet, but it was also the last meet for a lot of those people, and if not the last meet ever, the last meet they would ever swim for pali high. Thats when im glad im a sophmore and not a senior. I dont want high school to be over. I wish I had more than two years to achieve everything I want to do. Two years doesnt seem like much time to get everything done anymore...it used to seem like an eternity but not anymore. Ive been in school for almost my entire life except for three years. Now I dont want to have to choose what im going to study in college...I dont want to have to choose which college im going to go to...I want to be around the people who are familiar to me, I dont want to go to a whole new place, make new friends...I LIKE the friends that I have.
Ok, so I dont know what I want. If I could have both that would be great, but I cant, so I have to pick one. Right now I'll settle for summer but at the same time, I dont want my childhood to end. I wish I could just stop time in one perfect moment and keep it that way forever.
"I don't wanna grow up, I dont wanna wear a tie, in the middle of July..."