Writer's Block: A Last Day Well Spent
This is a question I've pondered a lot - mainly because I have these horrible recurring dreams where I'm on a hill/mountain on one side and can see my family across the valley on another mountain - but to get to them, I have to go through whatever is scaring me that day - its sorta reminiscent of the River Styx and having to journey to the other side - how to get there safe and sound. Sometimes I battle volcanoes and lava, other times earthquakes, throw in a tornado, a swamp where if you miss the rock you are eaten and you get the picture.
So in my dream - its the last day and I'm trying to get to my family. I guess that is what I would do - spend time with those I love as family is very important to me.
I could say, I would buy this or drink or eat that, but that isn't what is important to me. Its family - whether they are blood family or chosen family - its those people who have spoken to your soul that they are part of your family. I started thinking why would I just chose to spend time and I think its because for me - when I'm asked - what did you want to be when you grew up - my answer was always a mom - not a wife, not an executive, not a lawyer (why I left the field), and not a telephone support rep - but a mom.
Perhaps that is why my four legged babies are spoiled rotten and treated like humans. Its a shame I have never been able to attain the dream of being a mom in the "normal" way - husband with a house and kids. But my mind is always churning and someday I'll figure out how to achieve the dream in my way. I've been a foster mom for a few years, I've got my soul kids who are my friends children that I get to spoil, and a wonderful niece who I adore as if she were my own kid (people thought she was one day walking down the street and GLARED at my brother for daring to allow his young daughter to have a kid at such a young age - I thought it was hilarious that they thought he was my dad - he would have been 10 years old!).
So I guess I would spend the time with my family - which includes those I have chosen as family - laughing, fighting, discussing POLITIKS with Sofia, getting hugs from my niece, sharing jokes with my family of friends and knowing that my family loves me.
So in my dream - its the last day and I'm trying to get to my family. I guess that is what I would do - spend time with those I love as family is very important to me.
I could say, I would buy this or drink or eat that, but that isn't what is important to me. Its family - whether they are blood family or chosen family - its those people who have spoken to your soul that they are part of your family. I started thinking why would I just chose to spend time and I think its because for me - when I'm asked - what did you want to be when you grew up - my answer was always a mom - not a wife, not an executive, not a lawyer (why I left the field), and not a telephone support rep - but a mom.
Perhaps that is why my four legged babies are spoiled rotten and treated like humans. Its a shame I have never been able to attain the dream of being a mom in the "normal" way - husband with a house and kids. But my mind is always churning and someday I'll figure out how to achieve the dream in my way. I've been a foster mom for a few years, I've got my soul kids who are my friends children that I get to spoil, and a wonderful niece who I adore as if she were my own kid (people thought she was one day walking down the street and GLARED at my brother for daring to allow his young daughter to have a kid at such a young age - I thought it was hilarious that they thought he was my dad - he would have been 10 years old!).
So I guess I would spend the time with my family - which includes those I have chosen as family - laughing, fighting, discussing POLITIKS with Sofia, getting hugs from my niece, sharing jokes with my family of friends and knowing that my family loves me.