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I hate the feeling I get in my heart sometimes. It feels completely broken and I know it shouldn't. For some reason I like to sit in the feeling and let it take over, because it feels somehow right. I will listen to a song that leaves me with the feeling or sit in silence and let my head play the thoughts over and over. I can't let myself be happy and it feels frustrating but I don't know how to get there, especially because I don't completely know where there is. I have let go of so much and healed in so many ways, but it always comes back to this. This place in me.