"Memories fall from my eyes - and I smile to keep them in."
Back when I was in the third grade and my parents were going through their divorce I was scared most of the time. This was the year I saw "the blue man" for those of you who know that story :P I was in the basement watching tv and I got up, walked to the tv, and turned it off. I noticed something next to me. When I looked I saw that it was a boy (he was older than me, and therefore I called him a man when describing him when I was little) standing next to me and he was looking at the television. You could see through him, but he was entirely blue. I immediately ran upstairs screaming. My Dad forced me to go back down with him so that he could show me nothing was there and I was completely hysterical the whole time. Needless to say, after that incident I was always afraid that a ghost was going to appear in my bedroom when I sat there in the dark every night. I would end up crying and in bed with my parents. Looking back, I can still see the "blue man" in my head and it still feels real to me. However, I think the times after that when I was afraid and would end up with my parents, I probably just wanted to be close to them because of the turmoil our family was going through with the divorce and the fighting.
Anyways, back to what prompted this whole entry. One day I was out in the yard with my Dad and he gave me a piece of paper. It had a printout on it. He told me to stare at it for a minute then to look at the sky. I did it, and what it created was the outline of Jesus. He told me that at night when I went to sleep I was staring at the ceiling light, and when the light went out I could still see the outline of it when I looked around the room, just like with this picture. He also told me about how if there was anything bad all I had to do was "Jesus is my Lord and Savior" and it would scare all of the bad away because all of the bad was afraid of Jesus. I kept the printout and everytime I used it I would feel calm. I can't tell you how many times I sat in the dark, year after year, before bed reciting "Jesus is my Lord and Savior" to scare all of the bad away. I was always afraid when I was alone. I lost the printout a very long time ago.
So today when I checked my email I had one from my Grandpa - it had a bunch of optical illusions in it. The last one was the printout of Jesus. When I saw it I can't even describe the memories that came to me....like that one with my Dad so many years ago. It is as vivid as it was yesterday. Memories are very powerful things. Here is the picture:
Anyways, back to what prompted this whole entry. One day I was out in the yard with my Dad and he gave me a piece of paper. It had a printout on it. He told me to stare at it for a minute then to look at the sky. I did it, and what it created was the outline of Jesus. He told me that at night when I went to sleep I was staring at the ceiling light, and when the light went out I could still see the outline of it when I looked around the room, just like with this picture. He also told me about how if there was anything bad all I had to do was "Jesus is my Lord and Savior" and it would scare all of the bad away because all of the bad was afraid of Jesus. I kept the printout and everytime I used it I would feel calm. I can't tell you how many times I sat in the dark, year after year, before bed reciting "Jesus is my Lord and Savior" to scare all of the bad away. I was always afraid when I was alone. I lost the printout a very long time ago.
So today when I checked my email I had one from my Grandpa - it had a bunch of optical illusions in it. The last one was the printout of Jesus. When I saw it I can't even describe the memories that came to me....like that one with my Dad so many years ago. It is as vivid as it was yesterday. Memories are very powerful things. Here is the picture: