Tell me what to feel, because I don't feel a thing anymore...
When did life start becoming so meaningless?
I hate hate hate being busy.
I feel like i'm not myself.
I get depressed and I hate it.
I drank so much last night to just get some relief.
I can't wait till finals are over.
I need to stop this self destructive behavior.
It's not that i'm harming myself in any way.
But I know that if I continue this way of thinking, i'll get really depressed.
And when that happens, I lose myself in it.
And it takes a whole lot to get me back to myself again.
It's so hard to move on and get things done these days.
I just want to sit down and relax, but I have papers to do, errands to run.
Nicholas doesn't have time for me anymore.
It kills me. I just want to spend time with him.
I used to see him everyday in school, and then over the summer it was maybe once a week.
Now it's like...once or twice in two weeks.
We don't even really talk much anymore.
I feel disconnected from every one of my friends, because it's hard to just call or IM someone to check in when I have so much on my plate already.
Ugh.
Stop fastforwarding my life, it's not a movie. :(
I hate hate hate being busy.
I feel like i'm not myself.
I get depressed and I hate it.
I drank so much last night to just get some relief.
I can't wait till finals are over.
I need to stop this self destructive behavior.
It's not that i'm harming myself in any way.
But I know that if I continue this way of thinking, i'll get really depressed.
And when that happens, I lose myself in it.
And it takes a whole lot to get me back to myself again.
It's so hard to move on and get things done these days.
I just want to sit down and relax, but I have papers to do, errands to run.
Nicholas doesn't have time for me anymore.
It kills me. I just want to spend time with him.
I used to see him everyday in school, and then over the summer it was maybe once a week.
Now it's like...once or twice in two weeks.
We don't even really talk much anymore.
I feel disconnected from every one of my friends, because it's hard to just call or IM someone to check in when I have so much on my plate already.
Ugh.
Stop fastforwarding my life, it's not a movie. :(