Dear friends. Die whores.
So basically. I'm gonna post.
1. You. Do you honestly think i'd never find out? The lying, cheating, and just plain fucked up things you've done? You ruined everything. But. You also made me a better person. You helped me be cautious and truely look for love. And I found it. So even though it sucked going through what I did, I found what I deserve in the end. And it's deff not you. I do wonder though, what has become of you. If you're in jail or what. Last I heard you were gonna be. But oh well. You brought it upon yourself and I can't say that I miss you or the bullshit you put me through.
2. My life is so full because of you. You are heart. I honestly can say that I love you. More than I thought I could love after the shit i've been through. Thank you for being patient and caring. Thank you for keeping me strong when I broke down. Thank you for understanding and caring and wiping my tears away. Thanks for believing in me when no one else did, or when life started to get too much for me. Thank you for respecting my wishes and always putting me first (even though I tell you not to) Thank you for giving me your hoodie when i'm shivering in the movie theater. Thank you for being there. I love you.
3. So. I put up with a lot of your shit. Cheating on my cousin and all your other boyfriends. Hurting people close to me because you're immature. And that's exactly what you are. Immature. But at the same time. We've been best friends for so long. Years and years. We grew up together and I can't throw that away. Even if you are selfish most of the time, there are a few rare occasions where you help me out. Hopefully the distance between us will be easier to deal with and we can always have a connection with each other.
4. It's okay if you bitch and moan to me. I really don't mind. People need someone to talk to. Someone who can relate to them. And trust me. I'm the queen of failed relationships. Knowing that I helped you in anyway is much of a reward to me. If you want to pay me back, all you have to do is hang out with me. All I need is some friends right now. Because i'm feeling pretty lonely. And pretty distant from anyone. Everyone's changing and nothing's the same. I just need a few friends to be there for me. And I know that you'll happily take that place for me. Thanks. :)
5. Okay. Seriously. What did we do to deserve this? Why must you fuck things up? I was rooting for you. I really was. I tried to defend you when mom went all psycho, but I can't do that anymore. You're just digging a hole. You make wrong decisions and you aren't there for me. Or mom. We need you, but you're never around. Atleast you aren't like you were when I was a kid. Never home, always drunk and puking, or yelling at me, hurting me. You changed, i'll give you that. But you still fuck up too much for your age. Get it together dick. Please.
6. Sometimes. I cry. I sit and think of how you missed me growing up. You still think of me as a little kid. Someone who's too young to drive or have a boyfriend. News flash. I'm 17. You just don't know that because you left me when I was little. I'm not a kid anymore. I'm growing into an adult. In 6 months i'll be graduated. Cut me some slack. It feels like I don't even know you. You have a whole other life. A wife, a house, starting a family soon...who are you? Why was I cheated out of something so special? I grew up lonely. If it wasn't for Grandma I don't know what i'd do. When she died...it was like I lost everything in the world. I miss you so much....
7. We used to be so close. One fight and we're barely on speaking terms. You are so selfish. YOU CAN'T BE RIGHT ALL OF THE TIME. Who the fuck do you think you are? You are a hypocrite. I cannot believe you. Walking around like you are better than everyone else. Claiming you've had a hard life. Yeah? So have I. But do NOT try to compair hardships. It is not a contest. I wanted to be friends. I still do. But sometimes you say something to make me want to rip your fucking face off. Why can't you admit your wrong sometimes?
8. I always used to go to your house for parties. You were the cool family member. But then he had to die...and your life was ruined. I am so glad we can help you. I love you so much. You are such a great person. I don't know how you can be so nice and caring after that tragedy...but thank god you are. I fucking love you and I will continue to help you as much as I possibly can.
9 and 10 will have to wait. It's late and I have school tomorrow. So. Deff yell at me and tell me to update. I miss writing so bad.
1. You. Do you honestly think i'd never find out? The lying, cheating, and just plain fucked up things you've done? You ruined everything. But. You also made me a better person. You helped me be cautious and truely look for love. And I found it. So even though it sucked going through what I did, I found what I deserve in the end. And it's deff not you. I do wonder though, what has become of you. If you're in jail or what. Last I heard you were gonna be. But oh well. You brought it upon yourself and I can't say that I miss you or the bullshit you put me through.
2. My life is so full because of you. You are heart. I honestly can say that I love you. More than I thought I could love after the shit i've been through. Thank you for being patient and caring. Thank you for keeping me strong when I broke down. Thank you for understanding and caring and wiping my tears away. Thanks for believing in me when no one else did, or when life started to get too much for me. Thank you for respecting my wishes and always putting me first (even though I tell you not to) Thank you for giving me your hoodie when i'm shivering in the movie theater. Thank you for being there. I love you.
3. So. I put up with a lot of your shit. Cheating on my cousin and all your other boyfriends. Hurting people close to me because you're immature. And that's exactly what you are. Immature. But at the same time. We've been best friends for so long. Years and years. We grew up together and I can't throw that away. Even if you are selfish most of the time, there are a few rare occasions where you help me out. Hopefully the distance between us will be easier to deal with and we can always have a connection with each other.
4. It's okay if you bitch and moan to me. I really don't mind. People need someone to talk to. Someone who can relate to them. And trust me. I'm the queen of failed relationships. Knowing that I helped you in anyway is much of a reward to me. If you want to pay me back, all you have to do is hang out with me. All I need is some friends right now. Because i'm feeling pretty lonely. And pretty distant from anyone. Everyone's changing and nothing's the same. I just need a few friends to be there for me. And I know that you'll happily take that place for me. Thanks. :)
5. Okay. Seriously. What did we do to deserve this? Why must you fuck things up? I was rooting for you. I really was. I tried to defend you when mom went all psycho, but I can't do that anymore. You're just digging a hole. You make wrong decisions and you aren't there for me. Or mom. We need you, but you're never around. Atleast you aren't like you were when I was a kid. Never home, always drunk and puking, or yelling at me, hurting me. You changed, i'll give you that. But you still fuck up too much for your age. Get it together dick. Please.
6. Sometimes. I cry. I sit and think of how you missed me growing up. You still think of me as a little kid. Someone who's too young to drive or have a boyfriend. News flash. I'm 17. You just don't know that because you left me when I was little. I'm not a kid anymore. I'm growing into an adult. In 6 months i'll be graduated. Cut me some slack. It feels like I don't even know you. You have a whole other life. A wife, a house, starting a family soon...who are you? Why was I cheated out of something so special? I grew up lonely. If it wasn't for Grandma I don't know what i'd do. When she died...it was like I lost everything in the world. I miss you so much....
7. We used to be so close. One fight and we're barely on speaking terms. You are so selfish. YOU CAN'T BE RIGHT ALL OF THE TIME. Who the fuck do you think you are? You are a hypocrite. I cannot believe you. Walking around like you are better than everyone else. Claiming you've had a hard life. Yeah? So have I. But do NOT try to compair hardships. It is not a contest. I wanted to be friends. I still do. But sometimes you say something to make me want to rip your fucking face off. Why can't you admit your wrong sometimes?
8. I always used to go to your house for parties. You were the cool family member. But then he had to die...and your life was ruined. I am so glad we can help you. I love you so much. You are such a great person. I don't know how you can be so nice and caring after that tragedy...but thank god you are. I fucking love you and I will continue to help you as much as I possibly can.
9 and 10 will have to wait. It's late and I have school tomorrow. So. Deff yell at me and tell me to update. I miss writing so bad.