booo life!
So yeah. Life sucks for me right now.
It was goin good for a while. But then it just... kinda stopped.
Before it was because of the whole situation with my friends and because of the family.
The friend thing is fine now. But not the family.
I usually looove being with my family (and anyone who knows me really well knows this)
But not lately. I just can't stand being around them anymore. My brother plucks my nerves and so does Stoney (not as much as before.) But I just love how he tries to be my father and can't even control his own son. And the grandma is aight I guess. But mom... man... I can't even talk to her anymore. She just pisses me off!
Every time we do talk, we end arguing over shit. Mainly about money.
Which brings me to my other reason, I hate the fact that I am working for bills.
I never get any of my money. And I hate not ever having any money. I got $2 in my wallet! I NEED A NEW JOB! Sea Wrold just isn't cuttin it. It's not just that I only make $5.70 an hour. I just need more hours! It would fime if I got more hours. But anyway, I either give most of my money to my mom for my bills or I put it in the bank because mom likes to bitch and say that Im just wasting it and blah blah. I understand that she wants me to be responsilbe and what not. But dude, its my money. I usually ask my dad for some money here and there but man... I've grown so far apart from him.
I can't even remember the last time I talked to him. Oh wait, it was about a week or two ago and it was only for like 3 or 4 minutes. I just don't know what to say to him. And he gets mad that I don't call. He wants me to call and be like "how are things? I love and miss you." But I don't know. I just feel weird just saying that. I guess I feel that I should have more to say to him because I don't see him everyday. But I've never really been close to him. Because my mom left him when I was like 2 and ever since then, I've been going back and fourth between the two of them. And I just loved hearing how bad the other one was from the other when I was younger. Dad use to like to say that mom was brain washing me (don't ask me) and then mom would blame everything on dad and say that he was the reason why she left him and blah blah blah. It was fun lemme tell ya.
But yeah. I've just had sooo much on my mind lately. And its fucking me with school.
I got my report card today and mom was pissed. And Stoney even tried to lecture me. This is how my grades look...
*Algebra 2-70
*History-96
*Chemistry-90
*Speech-74
*Yearbook-73
*English 3-79
I don't know. I just haven't been in the mood to do my work. And I just don't even care anymore. I kinda stopped caring about a lot of things lately. And I've noticed that I've changed alittle. Like I'm usually the neatist person you would ever meet (right Tiffany). I mean my room is always clean, everything is put a certain way and everythings clean. But pshhh you should see my room now. It's crazy.
Well this had got to be the longest and meaning full entry I have ever wrote.
Annd I think I'm gonna end here.
It was goin good for a while. But then it just... kinda stopped.
Before it was because of the whole situation with my friends and because of the family.
The friend thing is fine now. But not the family.
I usually looove being with my family (and anyone who knows me really well knows this)
But not lately. I just can't stand being around them anymore. My brother plucks my nerves and so does Stoney (not as much as before.) But I just love how he tries to be my father and can't even control his own son. And the grandma is aight I guess. But mom... man... I can't even talk to her anymore. She just pisses me off!
Every time we do talk, we end arguing over shit. Mainly about money.
Which brings me to my other reason, I hate the fact that I am working for bills.
I never get any of my money. And I hate not ever having any money. I got $2 in my wallet! I NEED A NEW JOB! Sea Wrold just isn't cuttin it. It's not just that I only make $5.70 an hour. I just need more hours! It would fime if I got more hours. But anyway, I either give most of my money to my mom for my bills or I put it in the bank because mom likes to bitch and say that Im just wasting it and blah blah. I understand that she wants me to be responsilbe and what not. But dude, its my money. I usually ask my dad for some money here and there but man... I've grown so far apart from him.
I can't even remember the last time I talked to him. Oh wait, it was about a week or two ago and it was only for like 3 or 4 minutes. I just don't know what to say to him. And he gets mad that I don't call. He wants me to call and be like "how are things? I love and miss you." But I don't know. I just feel weird just saying that. I guess I feel that I should have more to say to him because I don't see him everyday. But I've never really been close to him. Because my mom left him when I was like 2 and ever since then, I've been going back and fourth between the two of them. And I just loved hearing how bad the other one was from the other when I was younger. Dad use to like to say that mom was brain washing me (don't ask me) and then mom would blame everything on dad and say that he was the reason why she left him and blah blah blah. It was fun lemme tell ya.
But yeah. I've just had sooo much on my mind lately. And its fucking me with school.
I got my report card today and mom was pissed. And Stoney even tried to lecture me. This is how my grades look...
*Algebra 2-70
*History-96
*Chemistry-90
*Speech-74
*Yearbook-73
*English 3-79
I don't know. I just haven't been in the mood to do my work. And I just don't even care anymore. I kinda stopped caring about a lot of things lately. And I've noticed that I've changed alittle. Like I'm usually the neatist person you would ever meet (right Tiffany). I mean my room is always clean, everything is put a certain way and everythings clean. But pshhh you should see my room now. It's crazy.
Well this had got to be the longest and meaning full entry I have ever wrote.
Annd I think I'm gonna end here.