Oh, To Be This Fool
Oh to be this fool for you is all I could ever ask. It is all I could ever want. To see you dance to the music you just told me you don't particularly like but to find it's beat and move in your way with a smile. To watch you down those whiskeys, to see your inhibitions fall, to watch you kiss the guy next to you, to kiss you moments after, and know those kisses misdirected have no arrows turned my way.
Oh to be this fool for you and love you like no other. It is all I could ever want. To feel this unrequited on a porch at 3 confessing every wave that rises from my messed up heart to my broken tongue. To watch you walk from the car to your door and know that I can come inside but I'll be on the couch, you'll be in the bed, and the hangover coming your way tomorrow will be greeted with the tea I bring you after a soft knock on your door.
Oh to be this fool for you and wake up alone but not lonely. It is all I could ever want. To feel the slight splinter to my temple but not so strong as to cloud the memories where in moments of misjudgment we kissed or I held you and let myself believe it was real for a full 5 seconds. To see your text at 11 and know that you are reeling, all with the conflict of how I should have stayed, am glad I didn't stay because it would just trick my foolish heart once more.
You are all I could ever want and all I will never have.
J
Oh to be this fool for you and love you like no other. It is all I could ever want. To feel this unrequited on a porch at 3 confessing every wave that rises from my messed up heart to my broken tongue. To watch you walk from the car to your door and know that I can come inside but I'll be on the couch, you'll be in the bed, and the hangover coming your way tomorrow will be greeted with the tea I bring you after a soft knock on your door.
Oh to be this fool for you and wake up alone but not lonely. It is all I could ever want. To feel the slight splinter to my temple but not so strong as to cloud the memories where in moments of misjudgment we kissed or I held you and let myself believe it was real for a full 5 seconds. To see your text at 11 and know that you are reeling, all with the conflict of how I should have stayed, am glad I didn't stay because it would just trick my foolish heart once more.
You are all I could ever want and all I will never have.
J