i used to be cool...
I used to be cool...now i'm sober. Nah, I'm just kidding. But that is how I sometimes feel. I guess I've been drinking and drugging for so long and now that I'm not, I don't know what to do with myself. I was "the life of the party" so to say. And now I'm trying to rediscover myself without all the drugs and alcohol. I've been sober for 7 months now. I think it will take me a little longer than that to find myself again. I have good days and bad days. I'm reading constantly for something to do. I've started scrapbooking. What I would really like to do is start painting again. I haven't painted in years. And it felt so natural to me, the brush to canvas, the way the paint flows from tip to handle. Blending colors...I need to get back to that. Find my niche and go with it. Lots of my painting before was done "under the influence", drinking a six pack while I was finishing up an assignment. Yeah, well...now I guess I'll try it on the wagon..