the fucking scoop!

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so heres the low down on my life as is!!... went out to canada for my b-day .. sweet freidns all hoed me out.. kristy and tara were there tho! thanxx guys.. john too.. but he was a lame ass all he did was stare at the floor and be stupid .. really pissed the fuck outta me! all in all the night really sucked!. i drank but i want a happy drunk i was really just pissed off.. o well.. whats new .. good to know what i can expect!...ne hoot!.. im leaving for MD on monday morning im really excited og damn by the way i got a new fucking car i took the loan out and picked it out and did everything all by myself!! go me!!.. its a 2002 malibu//. its so nice and runs great and ionly pay 157 a month on it! and like 90 in insur. im so hapy w/ it now im taking a road trip on mon . and wont be back till thur night!.. ill be gone 4 my b-dayso that dosent make john to happy but i duno if i even care ne more . i wanna have fun on my b-day not just sit around and maybe go out n get sum food that fucking boring and i would think that hed wanna do more on my day . like i do on his b-day!.. o well.. his whole thing really just makes me upset .. and i just duno bout him ne more.. n i think that hes starting to realize the distance w/ me and now hes trying harder then ever to show me what i man to him.. by huging me all the time and kissing me and saying certain things to me.. i duno i just kinda think its too late. its all what iv been giving him and what he hasnt been giving me.. and it sux.. cuz i love him and i duno what this means for our relationship i really dont but we will find out i guess.. but i g2g.. im going to do val's hair sweet.. 50 bones!!..lol.. yess!!.. spending money in MD!..if i dnt talk to yall ... love yall and wish me luck on nt getting lost!
much rad love as always
Rosie

**this is me bn stoked!!**