invisible cities.
I feel like i can't be in this house right now.
Did i mention that saturday night was terrible?
I'm thinking about all of the stupid shit i have done recently and it just makes everything in the room blur and suddenly i am always crying in the car on the way home from anywhere. Suddenly i am always crying everywhere. Being used is never a good feeling. Losing one of my best friends is never a good feeling. Not being able to go to school, not having any money, not having a mother who is speaking to me, no, these are not good feelings. Doubt and fear and jealousy and apathy and defeat are twisting my arms daily and i can't defend myself against assailants that are all products of my own inadaquacy.
Did i mention that saturday night was terrible?
I'm thinking about all of the stupid shit i have done recently and it just makes everything in the room blur and suddenly i am always crying in the car on the way home from anywhere. Suddenly i am always crying everywhere. Being used is never a good feeling. Losing one of my best friends is never a good feeling. Not being able to go to school, not having any money, not having a mother who is speaking to me, no, these are not good feelings. Doubt and fear and jealousy and apathy and defeat are twisting my arms daily and i can't defend myself against assailants that are all products of my own inadaquacy.