i'm going to fold my laundry

[starofsunday]

woah. emotional roller coaster. i really don't know how it all started. apparently i don't want to be happy. is that really how others perceive me? i want to be happy. i like being happy. i would say, in general, i am happy. i'm not a melodramatic teen anymore. although i have bouts with it occasionally. but really, why would she say that?! (that's a rhetorical question, please don't answer that) she told me that when things get serious, i run. just like my father, as the story goes. i haven't been running, in fact in the past 6 months i have learned a great deal of things, experienced things i never have, and would like to think i have grown from it all. i have made myself question things and think about situations in a relatively realistic manner. but on and on... i'm am finished.

i made banana bread today and it is wonderful. although the top fell off, i didn't care. i didn't run from it. *sticks out tongue*