a quick vent and a life story to follow
How I remain strong, I have absolutely no clue cause moments like these are when I think... how the heck can I forget how much this hurt!!!!!!! How can I continue to believe him when it all turns out to be a lie. Why do I love him still, when he stampeeded over my heart. How am I supposed to be able to keep a bf when I can't even trust my own father! Why do I continue to put myself back in this position? How can he say he loves us when he doesn't love us when the big things come along? Its all a blast until now, when I reflect and realize it wasnt that much of a blast at all. Some times the cons outway the pros too much.
This is all in God's hands. I continue to pray and keep in mind He has a plan and reason for all this. He wouldn't bring me to it if I couldn't go through it. I strongly believe that, but I just don't understand. We can never understand.
It just hurts. Why can't maybe my life be great? Speed bumps are every where on my road, but when I look over the median... no one on the other roads have near as many speedbumps. It just hurts.