She was here for 1/2 a year, I've been his daughter for almost 15... and I'm the one chosen last!
I just feel numb! I feel empty, but with tears stinging my eyes.
Tonight I really isolated myself and Mom said its because I'm depressed right now and I can't isolate myself... but I did. For once I wasn't having the laughs and smiling and being lovable I was the wallflower, not wanting anybody to notice me.
I don't know when I'll be updating again. Might not! I just... gone.
Right now, I'd appreciate prayers.
"You are the author of knowledge
You can redeem what's been done
You hold the present and all that's to come
Until your everlasting kingdom
Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt"