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well like i needed life to get more fucked up...my stepmom is in the hospital. she had an aneurysm in her brain. or has. i dunno how those really work actually. well apparently she'd been having headaches for about a week, and then my sister said last night she was in the bathroom and just collapsed and started screaming and told her to get daddy, and so dad took her to the ER...and they were there for a while, giving her tests, cat scans and i think a spinal tap...and then she got taken to Methodist hospital up in indy in an ambulance. i had gone to the house to sit with michelle and keep her calm cause she had no idea what was going on...i tried explaining it to her but talking about it just made ME want to start wigging out and cry but i didnt want to scare her. so then dad comes back from union and hes saying oh she could die and this and that because my dad is nuts when hes nervous or worried....anxiety problems run rampant in my family in case you havent noticed....so anyway i just had to keep them calm and help them pack to go stay in indy with debbie. dad couldnt find any clean pants and he probably flipped out about that for a good half an hour. danny had to go stay at his house to watch the dogs and watch the house and all of dads precious CRAP. i gotta go over there in a little while and do their laundry and pack them both up some clean clothes. i had to call school this morning for michelle. im just trying to take care of as much as i can, and be as helpful as possible, to keep me from freaking out. i cant even describe what life in my family would be like without her. everyone would fall apart. i dont know what the hell dad and michelle would do. she does everything for them. michelle doesnt need to lose her mother...we've had quite enough of that around here lately....shes so scared. im so scared too but i dont want to make her worry. i just keep telling her its going to be okay, but how is she supposed to believe me when debbie is laying in ICU in indianapolis with a fucking catheder in her brain....i mean seriously...i dunno i just need to keep myself busy so i dont start freaking out i guess...were going up there tonite, me mom and danny and probably bobble...if i can get someone to come over and watch pete...i hope josh can come...if not i guess i can call shannon. man this sucks.
update...2:54 pm
well i just talked to my dad, he and michelle are at home now...dad is going to get his laundry done and rest a bit and shower and then go back to the hospital tonite pretty late. i guess they have debbie pretty fucking loopy and knocked out for the pain. they did a bunch more tests on her, i guess they needed to look for clots...and didnt find any more...and they said the place where the aeurysm or hemmoraging or whatever is, is in the back of her brain, near the base....so its a good thing that its not way in the middle of her brain, because obviously that makes it harder to work on and is much riskier. so dad said its still serious, shes not out of the woods yet but shes in "good shape"....well im sure as good of shape as anyone is in the intensive care unit...
they are doing another test on her tomorrow, to find out if they need to do one of two things, one involving glue injected in her leg or something, and the other involving some different kind of temporary glue and they later they split her skull open and do major brain surgery...so who the fuck knows...who knows how she is even going to come out of this if she does come out...this is so fucking stressful. poor debbie. man she never just gets sick, like gets a cold or a rash or something, she has to have some kind of major life altering shit, like have her intestines fall out or her face gets paralyzed or something. fuck. FUUUUUUCK. ive been freaking out, trying not to freak out all day, just trying to do shit and talk on the phone 24/7 to keep myself busy, trying to find out news from everyone and keep everyone up to date. im just glad theyre home and i know whats up. well anyway thats all for now i guess im gonna wait til mom gets home so we can go. i guess sharon is gonna babysit and were taking bobble. so yeah. bye for now. pray for debbie.
update...2:54 pm
well i just talked to my dad, he and michelle are at home now...dad is going to get his laundry done and rest a bit and shower and then go back to the hospital tonite pretty late. i guess they have debbie pretty fucking loopy and knocked out for the pain. they did a bunch more tests on her, i guess they needed to look for clots...and didnt find any more...and they said the place where the aeurysm or hemmoraging or whatever is, is in the back of her brain, near the base....so its a good thing that its not way in the middle of her brain, because obviously that makes it harder to work on and is much riskier. so dad said its still serious, shes not out of the woods yet but shes in "good shape"....well im sure as good of shape as anyone is in the intensive care unit...
they are doing another test on her tomorrow, to find out if they need to do one of two things, one involving glue injected in her leg or something, and the other involving some different kind of temporary glue and they later they split her skull open and do major brain surgery...so who the fuck knows...who knows how she is even going to come out of this if she does come out...this is so fucking stressful. poor debbie. man she never just gets sick, like gets a cold or a rash or something, she has to have some kind of major life altering shit, like have her intestines fall out or her face gets paralyzed or something. fuck. FUUUUUUCK. ive been freaking out, trying not to freak out all day, just trying to do shit and talk on the phone 24/7 to keep myself busy, trying to find out news from everyone and keep everyone up to date. im just glad theyre home and i know whats up. well anyway thats all for now i guess im gonna wait til mom gets home so we can go. i guess sharon is gonna babysit and were taking bobble. so yeah. bye for now. pray for debbie.