Hear me
So I tried to handle this maturely by having a conversation with you. Unfortunetely you made it very clear you don't want to talk to me. I'm dissapointed in how much you have misjudged me and the lack of integrity you've chosen to have in this situation. So I'll write all of this here so I can stop thinking about it.
Since our trip to new York you have been ignoring me. The guy I started being friends with in December never failed to respond to a text or a phone call. I thought it was part of our friendship to respond to each other, hang out whenever, and spending time talking. Out of no where you stop responding to me, stopped hanging out with me, and stopped any kind of one on one talking. Did I do something? Why were we friends when you were going through a rough time but we can't be when your happy? I just acted normal thinking it would change.
Then you lied. Through all of the drama you put me through I never asked for anything...except for your honesty. Remember? I asked for you to be honest and you said you would. You yo yo d me for months and I never spoke one I'll word of you. I was still your friend and was there no maatter what... And you lies. Over something stupid that you didnt have to lie about. Why?it doesnt make sense.
So I thought I would do the right thing and talk to you and ask why you felt you has to lie. Maybe I did something wrong. Maybe I weirded you out or maybe you just didn't want to be friends. All of which are understandable but I didn't understand why you didn't tell me. I've been so reasonable and understanding so far. What made you act this way?
But you didn't want to talk. You in fact made it very clear that this friendship was of no good for you. Apparently I rip you down into a funk. Apparently I have been the problem. At least your doing something pro active I guess. So all I can think is that this whole time you only wanted to be friends if it meant you would date me. So when you didn't want to date me you decided it wasn't worth it.
I want to talk. I want you to prove me wrong. I want to make things right. But you won't let me. For some reason I don't understand you are pushing me away. Okay. You win. I won't fight.
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