Don't Bother. i'm just complaining
So i have a list of things on my mind...tell me if you think i'm driving myself into the ground.
Dan leaving sunday
-My brother leaves for the marines Sunday. at 7. I'm not going to Youth group we are chilling around the house before hand. I'm not sad, i know why he is leaving, i would too if i was him, idk theres something about him always being around...and not South Carolina for 3 months.
Finals
-i'm not ready. i already know this. Enlgish will be ok...i hope it all Hamlet. Bio is going to suck. i think mostly yhr essays which are tuesday and wednesday. Fianl thursday. Idk i'm pretty much freaking out. Pre-calc is gonna blow, i need this to be good i need to get a a average over all...i have a B+ now in the blass with a B and and A last two card markings....i need this. Econ, is going to fuck me over, 100 questions, 4 essays...i should be perpared but i'm not, this is what i get for nothing doing anything in class.Chior i'm even worried about, its mainly the terms i dont know...always suck i always get a A- or b on it but who knows what will happen.
grades themselves
-Yah if u cant tell my grades will suck if my finals aren't good..which means i'm liklying to get kicked off teh top 10 of my class, becasue everyone else will get better grades then me! :(
school to pay for
-College is coming and idk my brothers in debt, laura and dave, i dont want to be, but i know it gonna happen, :( i'm just scared.
NROTC
-This is a scholarship from teh Navy/Marines you go to college for 4 years get your degree, you then serve as an Officer for 4 years in Navy/Marines....it takes a long time to earn an officer position, who knows. it might be worth it if the goverment will pay for everything for me to be a teacher. who know si have to look into this more, U of M and Eastern are the only schools that accpet this and have the classes required for it....but i'm not likly to get into U of M with my test scores!
Ap Bio...
-What else is there to say. I understand what she says in class i go home attempt to work on stuff, dont understand anything....even the packets screw me up....idk what to do, i know i can go in for help, but how much help is enough. I need to start practiing for the Ap test, if we score a certain percent on the last practice test she gives i got have to take next semesters final...which is a big stress lift! I got to practice though!
Choir-yah even choir
-we go over songs for competition and i'm not getting teh notes right...i keep switching from Alto and soprano melodies, and its pissing me off, i try but i sound like shit, so thats stressing me out...i'll get it eventually i guess.
my laziness
-Basically if i wasn't lazy none of teh above or below would apply. i'm also slacking in my work outs....my determination only goes so far.. need to change. FAST
lack of job/time/no money
-i feel like i have no time to do anything, and then when i do i need money and i never have any. no time=no job=no fun becasue of no money...eeep!
Ap Bio...
-Honestly need i say more?
Trip To Minnesota
-idk why i'm freaking out. i'm going to have fun with my sister and her friend, shopping at the biggest Mall in America(Mall of America) for a weekend with no school.idk i think its the fact that i'll be flying for the first time, and who knows what to expect! But that also involoves no money, my sister paid for me to go and we are getting dresses for brides maids...idk its just one more thing on my list
My general health-
my knees and theighs hurt like no other from bending up and down for 2 hours from Masonic Heights carnival, my teeth feel like they are going to rot(they aren't) AP Bio and learning from it all the defects of what happens when u dont take care of your self freak me out, i feel like i'm going to end up like one of thoese sick people who cant help themselves! :(
Always needing something to make me happy... i cant just be happy!
-i not happy...is anyone at 17 years old? hell is anyone ever happy all teh time! surei can fake it, i can have fun, but that funs reminds me of the things i didn't do because i was having fun...like now......
It will all be over soon i suppose!