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theres things i want to say.
One. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I need a boost or something. I've been feeling low and not myself for a while now.. and i cant understand why. I know im not happy at the moment and nothing is getting better. Ive become bored with life, mainly because im lonely and eveything i do is boring. School - all i do is sit there and everything miss joyce says goes in one ear and right out the other, my job... today i freaking edged all the pants in the store for 3 hours... thats what u call a dead end job.
Its taking forever for me to get out on the floor at school so i can actully do something while im there, and maybe learn. That would be awesome. But then again i want to take a break and get out of here for a month or so... cuz God knows i need it. I feel like im going in circle's. I know my life isnt that bad, it really isnt. I love my parents dearly, i might not show it all the time but God id be dead without them. My friends are amazing and im very lucky to have a special someone in my life. But even that had its complacations. I just want to be happy. How come that is so difficult? I guess no one can answer that but me... And thats what scares me.
One. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I need a boost or something. I've been feeling low and not myself for a while now.. and i cant understand why. I know im not happy at the moment and nothing is getting better. Ive become bored with life, mainly because im lonely and eveything i do is boring. School - all i do is sit there and everything miss joyce says goes in one ear and right out the other, my job... today i freaking edged all the pants in the store for 3 hours... thats what u call a dead end job.
Its taking forever for me to get out on the floor at school so i can actully do something while im there, and maybe learn. That would be awesome. But then again i want to take a break and get out of here for a month or so... cuz God knows i need it. I feel like im going in circle's. I know my life isnt that bad, it really isnt. I love my parents dearly, i might not show it all the time but God id be dead without them. My friends are amazing and im very lucky to have a special someone in my life. But even that had its complacations. I just want to be happy. How come that is so difficult? I guess no one can answer that but me... And thats what scares me.