...you killed me forever and after.
I didn't want to write anything tonight, but I feel that this is necessary. I've spent a week trying to put myself in other people's shoes, and I have a better sense of why some people aren't happy with me. I'll hopefully be able to clarify everything in here right now.
First off, I'm not stopping anything I've been doing. I don't have a problem with it, and even though I have a much better picture now, it's still hard to see why other people do. I'm still the exact same person I have been, and I would never to anything to intentionally hurt-whether it be emotionally or physically- any of my friends. I know people are afraid of me drifting apart, but I am not going to do that. Every single day I think about my future. Honestly, I think about how every thing I do, major or minor, is going to effect it. I live for my future, every single thing I do plays a part in it, and it's been that way my whole life. The reason I've never ever let any of my grades slip was because of how it would play a role in my future. I don't know how my life is going to end up, but I can never imagine it without the friends I have now. The ones who know so much about me, the ones who I live for. And not trying to sound pessimistic, I have just as great a chance of dying right now as everyone around my age does, no matter what, I know that. I'm having fun with the life I have now, doing what I like. I just live a lot more relaxed than other people do. I still take everything seriously, but I hate drama and little things with people that aren't going to matter in the long run. As an artist, I look at my life as my portfolio.
My past, present, and future are the most important pieces of artwork there can ever be.
First off, I'm not stopping anything I've been doing. I don't have a problem with it, and even though I have a much better picture now, it's still hard to see why other people do. I'm still the exact same person I have been, and I would never to anything to intentionally hurt-whether it be emotionally or physically- any of my friends. I know people are afraid of me drifting apart, but I am not going to do that. Every single day I think about my future. Honestly, I think about how every thing I do, major or minor, is going to effect it. I live for my future, every single thing I do plays a part in it, and it's been that way my whole life. The reason I've never ever let any of my grades slip was because of how it would play a role in my future. I don't know how my life is going to end up, but I can never imagine it without the friends I have now. The ones who know so much about me, the ones who I live for. And not trying to sound pessimistic, I have just as great a chance of dying right now as everyone around my age does, no matter what, I know that. I'm having fun with the life I have now, doing what I like. I just live a lot more relaxed than other people do. I still take everything seriously, but I hate drama and little things with people that aren't going to matter in the long run. As an artist, I look at my life as my portfolio.
My past, present, and future are the most important pieces of artwork there can ever be.