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monday: the first day back at school; it was dark and rainy <333 that was just odd though going back to school on a day like that after two weeks off. the weather was lovely nonetheless.
today: it was ok. i don't know, i just wasn't in the mood for anything. i didn't wanna come off bitchy so i was just quiet and laughed. whatever. the whole time i just wanted to be left alone really. oh well. dustin's odd. i think he was playing games with my head. whatever, right now i don't even fucking give a rat's ass about that because people are stupid douche bags and should never be able to speak.
today i went to eat dinner at my aunts house. i didn't really want to go, but i did because i'm a good daughter like that. besides, my aunt made vegetarian stuff for me. anyway, the evening was ok i guess. i sat there reading Rolling Stone and eating. it was all good until after dinner. my mother began speaking once again about me not eating me and shit. then she goes on to say that i'm fat now. that doesn't even bother me. it's the fact that i can never fucking please that stupid bitch. before the complaint was that i never ate and was too skinny. now it's the i'm a vegetarian and i'm fat. not once will i please her. if i go on a diet i get in trouble. if i work out, i get food shouved down my fucking throat. what fucking gives. that stupid piece of shit called a mother doesn't make any fucking sense. i don't even wanna lose weight to please her or my god damn fucking brother. i just wanna lose weight to have them shut the fuck up. if it's not my food habits or my physical appearance, [her complaints go way beyond just my weight] it's my glasses. if it's not my glasses, it's my hair. not my hair it's my clothes. not my clothes, my music, or how i walk, or how i blah blah fuckity blah fuck. the list goes on and on. i am never going to be able to please her. as if i don't have enough shit going on in my life, especially with the family, she has to add damn fuel to the fucking fire.
it's not always mood swings; they're called emotions. fucking cunts. go choke on a cock.
p.s. sorry if you wasted your time reading this. and yeah, i said fuck alot of the fucking time, sorry.
today: it was ok. i don't know, i just wasn't in the mood for anything. i didn't wanna come off bitchy so i was just quiet and laughed. whatever. the whole time i just wanted to be left alone really. oh well. dustin's odd. i think he was playing games with my head. whatever, right now i don't even fucking give a rat's ass about that because people are stupid douche bags and should never be able to speak.
today i went to eat dinner at my aunts house. i didn't really want to go, but i did because i'm a good daughter like that. besides, my aunt made vegetarian stuff for me. anyway, the evening was ok i guess. i sat there reading Rolling Stone and eating. it was all good until after dinner. my mother began speaking once again about me not eating me and shit. then she goes on to say that i'm fat now. that doesn't even bother me. it's the fact that i can never fucking please that stupid bitch. before the complaint was that i never ate and was too skinny. now it's the i'm a vegetarian and i'm fat. not once will i please her. if i go on a diet i get in trouble. if i work out, i get food shouved down my fucking throat. what fucking gives. that stupid piece of shit called a mother doesn't make any fucking sense. i don't even wanna lose weight to please her or my god damn fucking brother. i just wanna lose weight to have them shut the fuck up. if it's not my food habits or my physical appearance, [her complaints go way beyond just my weight] it's my glasses. if it's not my glasses, it's my hair. not my hair it's my clothes. not my clothes, my music, or how i walk, or how i blah blah fuckity blah fuck. the list goes on and on. i am never going to be able to please her. as if i don't have enough shit going on in my life, especially with the family, she has to add damn fuel to the fucking fire.
it's not always mood swings; they're called emotions. fucking cunts. go choke on a cock.
p.s. sorry if you wasted your time reading this. and yeah, i said fuck alot of the fucking time, sorry.