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you want to know what i realized today,
that i'm a great person, and that i put an impression on everyone
that i know is good. i don't need this ANY of this. i'm better off. i'm a better person.
without you. and just know youre NOT the biggest regret of my life. believe me, i have MANY.
and if you knew the half of them. i'm sure we wouldn't even be friends. i don't want to hate you.
i don't want to be on bad terms. but i guess we have to be. i know you miss me. and i know you miss
that companionship because you can tell other people these things and not me. the one person
who would love to hear it the most. and yeah we did grow up together, and when we changed
as in our personailitys, our style, just everything. we changed together. everything we've ever done
was together. it was you and i always. and i'm sorry for being young and stupid and thinking
it would be you and i till forever. i shouldn't of even thought that. i was setting myself up.
but if you think youre gonna walk all over me. and youre gonna do whatever you want, and think
i'm still gonna be there, well you're wrong. i'm not gonna be there next time. and i'll promise you that.
i love you with all my heart, but you have made some dumb and unthoughtful decisions in your life
and i really feel sorry for you. youre a drunken mess, all the time. don't do that to yourself.
you don't have to drink, you only make yourself look like an ass. well i guess i'm done.
i love you unconditionally, i won't lie. but i'll maybe see you in 4 years. have fun at college,
don't forget me.
i miss you.
4.11.02