i'll take your hair with me wrapped around my bloody knuckles as a soft spoken reminder<3
so today i woke up at 12:30. i called joe to see if he wanted to come over. and of course he says no. haha are you surprised? yeahh. i didn't think so. so then we fight because my friend eric dougherty's dads veiwing was today and i didn't have a ride but i also didn't wanna go by myself. so i called joe to see how he was getting there and then he preceeded to tell me "I AM NOT YOUR CRUTCH" yeah whatever buddy that's bullshit because you're suppose to be my friend and you don't act like it at all. and when we were going out thats how it always was you did the same to me you ungrateful basterd. HAHAH. i crack myself up. but this is the truth, isn't it scary? so then i called my lovely best friend jaybird and asked him for a ride and he said yes. how i love jay<3 so i got ready waited for jay and then we headed to fox funeral home on castor&brighton. everyone was there. we said our hello's and our sorry's we stayed for 2 hours with everyone. and then everyone decided we were gonna go to the country club to get some dinner. so everyone split up and met there. it was nice. me and diane each got a chicken caeser wrap and split fries. we were being the "evil ex girlfriends" together and i loved every moment of it. joe didn't stay for dinner because he had to eat with his family. ugh. i was upset but oh well.
after dinner jaybird drove me home. i sat around and then i called joe and i went over to his house. we put on some senses fail, rx bandits, and the early november and sung in his room, reenacted scenes from napolean dynamite, wrestled, and then alex came for us to go to eric's house. we parked at dan huhn's house and walked around. everyone was there and we sat around in the hot house. some people were drinking, but i didn't feel like it. joe was being ignorant all night, HA whats new? so then some of us walked to wawa. i seen kelli curcio and her mom sitting in their yard on the way home i wanted to say hi, but i know it would of been awkward and she wouldve wanted to talk for a bit and no one wouldve waited for me, especially not the jerk joe. so we got back to eric's and tara, jenna, and matt were there. i sat with tara on the step we made fun of everyone. and then jenna and matt left they're so cute i love it, they make me jealous. then me and tara decided to head out.
me tara jenna and steph are going to west chester this weekend whoop whoop! we're excited! hahah. we're gonna probably get a couple bottles of bacardi. and have fun. i'm gonna try not think of joe while i'm there but i'm sure i'll see him, and sleep in his room. errr. hmmm...<3
i really like someone, and i am being selfish i am. but i can't help it. I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ANYMORE AND I WISH I HAD THE ANSWERS TO EVERYTHING. but i don't. and therefore i am going to go with the flow, we both know we like eachother. i'm sorry. but we need to try. and i don't mean a relationship, don't get the wrong idea. because i don't think i am in any condition for a relationship as of now, but just anything. it'll be fun, i promise.<3
well goodnight everyone. and i love you's.
tomorrow i thin i'm hanging out with him<3
and this is my four leaf clover,
heather michelle