I'm still alive, but missing everyone!
I'm still alive here, but improving so much more slowly than I'd like. I vow to be well enough to go on line again soon though! That's become my new short-term goal. Once I'm well enough to go on-line every day again, or at least nearly every day, I'll feel like I've gained back the ground I've lost to this latest major flare. And I do plan to gain back any ground I've lost! I have to, because letting myself lose a little ground here and a little more there will be the way this disease eventually beats me. And it doesn't get to win this fight-I will be the victor here! There are some other complicating factors weighing in on this thing right now though, such as our continued lack of transportation and all that goes along with that. We are taking the mechanics to small claims court, and have a court date near the end of the month. I have no doubt we will win the case, but when we finally do we still will be faced with trying to collect whatever amount is awarded to us. And once we accomplish that we're basically back at square one-that is, having to try to find someone to rebuild our engine all over again. So it looks like even though we're going into our 7th month with no transportation, it isn't something that will be resolved soon even if everything goes our way. Oh well. I am suffering the effects of lack of medical care though. I do get to some Dr. appt's, but not nearly as many as I need to. And that is taking a toll on me health wise. But I won't let it be my demise. I just have to increase all the things I can do on my end to compensate for it, like prayer, positive thinking, and visual imagery. We're also having some problems that are caused by our lack of transportation that are taking their toll on both of us. Lots of them. But I don't want to turn this post into an all-out bitch fest so I'm not going to list them. I really would rather leave this on the positive note that no matter what is happening here, I have all my LJ friends in my corner-and I know that. I also have my husband, who is the love of my life, my soul mate, my everything that isn't filled up by my children. Actually we have each other. And together, no matter what happens to us, we'll pull through it, and be better for it in the long run. Because love outweighs all, doesn't it?